i survived!

yeah so guess what? i survived the first day of General Conference! yeah amazing. no the amzing thing is, when i actually listened i found that i actually enjoyed it. i enjoyed listening to what the leaders of my church, the mormon church, had to tell us. i especially like Brother worthlin's talk. he talked about the resurrection of christ. and he said that so often in our lives there are times that are like the friday of christ's crucifixtion. it's hard and trying times, but, our sunday, like that when christ rose from the dead, will come. the hard stuff will end. and it was really comforting to hear that. then of course there was a talk on tithing. and i have troubles with tithing and so i felt it was totally directed at me. and it was good to hear what the man had to say. and today was the first time i n forever that i actually listened to conference. but, i'm glad i did. i have to say, it's made it a little easier to try to get back into religion with the encouragement of friends like lizbiz, slypig, and freak. thanx so much. and of course paleo. thanx bunches to all my friends. i really do want to know for myself whether the church is true and where religion fits into my life.

just an average jane signing off! (smile cuz life is good!)

an almost fight at the football game

so last night i went to my high school football game. it was a blast and i got to spend the time with some of my best friends like slypig and freak. it was so much fun! first we went to the tailgate party and ate yummy hotdogs. then of course we painted our faces with giant TWs for our school. we totally got into the game. i really don't undertand football i must admit. however. i got the fact that the players are trying to get a touchdown. but, we yelled and screamed our hearts out! it was amzing. at halftime we totally rolled down the hill. i felt like a little kid again. and it was beyond fun. of course i remembered to include freak this time. also, me and my cousin-sasquatch-and slypig decided to go to the opposing teams side. yeah i know most people told us we were totally and completely crazy. but, so we venture over there and slypig gets the great idea to make video of us going over. and he totally dramatizes it. and of course sasquatch fell to the ground like he had been hurt. and i was all like oh no! dramatized of course! and he's all like i just need donuts and i'll be okay. then we go over and the other team really booed us. i expected it but they were really kinda mean about it. they were basically shooing us away and being beyond rude. then as we were slowly heading back to our side, a group of about 5 guys approach us and begin talking to us. they start off and just ask my cousin if he feels embaressed cuz he looks like a faggot. (now i should explain what he looks like- he had one half of his face painted blue, the other yellow. and then his arms were blue and yellow. it was awsome!) anyhoo, slypig says, yeah that's what we value at our school. hee hee! but, then the guy who was razzing us didn't even go to the opposing team's school. he went to an entirely different school! and it was one of his friends that totally told us. it was hilarious. but, then the guys asks me if i'm sasquatch's girlfriend or sumthin cuz i was totally defending him. and i was like no, he's my cousin. but then i said that yeah he's my boyfriend and put my arm around him. the guys were all like eww. and gave us funny looks. then slypig says, yeah we swing that way at our school. it was priceless. i think that if we'd been there for a minute or two more there would have been a fight and it would have been funny. but, yeah then we finally made it safely back to our own side after some more razzing from the other team's side while we cheered for my school. yeah it was a blast . and i think that is enough for today! later.

and average jane signing off.

explanations and questions

because of comments i got on my last post, i have decided to explain more fully my intentions. so i met this guy on myspace. however i understand the dangers in going and meeting him. but, i am taking all the possible precautions. okay here is how it will go. possibly next saturday. he is coming to my house to "meet" my parents. they only thingk that he's a friend i knew last year in high school. but, then i'm going to go with two friends, one guy and one girl. i'm gonna have my own car, so that if anything gets awkward i can leave if i feel like it. and i won't ever be alone with him. and of course i'll be in public places with my friends right by my side at all times. hope that will at least pacify my friends. i understand your concern. especially army man's and paleo's but, please. let it go! i'm gonna take all possible precautions and it'll all be okay. thanx for your friendship paleo. it means a lot to me. hopefully this will at least ease your worries. i hope someday i can meet you and tell you face to face how much your friendship means to me.

anyhoo, happy thoughts. so yeah i actually did my homework for school and i'm actually caught up with all my grades. i have b's or higher. and it's great. cuz it means that maybe i can survive senior year. and honestly i never thought that i'd be the studious type, but, at the same time, sometimes there's just a simple joy in learning. i like learning about new cultures. it really interests me. i guess that's the one thing i like about my humanities class is that i'm being introduced to new culture and new ideas. and it seems that one big question keeps popping up every time i go to class. and that is, is there really a god? we're focusing on religon, and i can't help but wonder. but i guess that's for me to find out .

average jane signing off!

complications, but, still moving on!

so about a year ago i met this guy on myspace. you all know what myspace is. it's gotten a lot of bad publicity because some perverted guys use it to find young girls to use for their sexual pleasures. and i happened to meet a great guy on it. we've been emailing back and forth for about 8 months now. we kept in contact first through myspace, then switched to email. but, i've gotten to know him so well that i honestly would trust him. however, i have some friends that don't think i should meet him. they say it's way too dangerous and he could turn out to be some crazy person. i understand completely their concerns. but, at the same time, i've really come to know this guy and my gut instinct tells me that it's gonna be okay. and my instinct has never once been wrong, well, maybe in the case of my ex boyfriend. i thought i was ready for a boyfriend, but i wasn't. anyhoo, like when i tried going on chat rooms a couple nights cuz i was bored, i got this feeling that something wasn't right about it. and so i got off. but, when i talk to this guy, mr. space, i'll call him, i don't ever get that feeling. and even when i plan to meet up with him, possibly by myself, i don't at all feel nervous or unsettled about any of it. and you know what, i'm gonna meet up with him this saturday and i'm gonna have a blast. and if anyone still feels i shouldn't well, that's their opinon.
but, otherwise in life i'm doing good. i'm doing very good being guy free. i think i need to just live life right now. after all, it's my senior year, it's a time to be carefree and just have fun. that is apparent by the fact that i have two senior trips to plan for in april. yeah i'm going to go to san francisco twice within two weeks for both of my trips. it's kind of ironic that i'm stuck going to the same place, but, i'll be with two different groups and we'll be doing different things. with my travel and tourism group, it's a more structured trip. we'll be visiting hotels and talking to stuffy management people. but, still we get to see alcatraz and fly by plane. but, with my choir tour i'm gonna be going to amusement parks, seminars at stanford, and going to ghiradelli square. oh and of course sing and perform. it's gonna be awsome. so yeah that's enouhg of my babbling for today! that's my life! you should create a blog and have fun like me~

average jane signing off!