so more craziness....

so hey for my friend's sake i'm coming on to say, ' i made it back safe and sound from my hangout with jesse!' but at the same time, things are different. cuz here's what happened.

well, the hangout started out like 15-20 minutes late cuz i got lost and couldn't find parking. but then i caught up with jesse and we really had a good time. it was fun to be able to hang out and just chat. cuz when we first met, we went to dinner and a movie, and didn't have much time to talk. so this time was good. but near the end of our hangout, we went into the virgin megastore at gateway, cuz it had some sale cuz it was closing. and i have come to love the store for its sales. so we wandered around and talked and looked at cds and movies. then as we were walkin up to pay for my cd, jesse put his arm around my waist and said, 'i'm sorry for not talking much.' and i told him it was alright. and that i talk a lot. and when he put his arm around my waist for that brief few seconds, that's when i first wondered if he had started to really like me. and looking back, he seemed to recall bits about my life i had told him that i wouldn't have expected someone to remember. cuz i mentioned my ex. and he immediately said, 'dave?' like he remembered his name. this happened with a couple of other little facts. but then when we went up to the counter to pay, he saw that they had harry potter 1 and 2 for half off. so i was like oh... i want those...hmm.. and he did the whole arm around my waist thing but a bit different and longer. so i began to suspect something more. but it wasnt' until we were in the parking lot under the gateway that i began to think really much of anything. he walked me to my car and i was saying goodbye. then he put his arms on my waist as i was facing him and pulled me closer to him. he then said, ' i know this is out of the blue, but do you want to go out with me?' and i kind of hesitated. and he said, 'it's okay to say yes or no, either way.' and i said, 'possibly' and he said 'it's okay to say no.' and i said, 'i'd like to go on dates with you, but not boyfriend/girlfriend like.' and he said okay. then we said goodbye, hugged and he went to find his car.

then i came home and i was like oh what am i getting myself into....so i wrote him an email clarifying that i would like to go on dates, but just as friends, so i guess that's more of a hangout. but i told him that there is actually a guy i'm interested in right now. and that's robert. i like him and i want the chance to get to know him better. cuz he's way nice. and cute and funny. and i really want to go on a date with him. i wish that chris didn't have to be in the way. but i know how it hurts to lose a friendship. it really bites. and i am not gonna be the reason that robert and chris' friendship dies. so yeah. but maybe after i go on one date with chris, it'll work itself out. cuz i don't want to hurt chris' feelings. but i really want to go on a date with robert....it's way too complicated. oh well, at least it's not three guys anymore that i have to worry about. i'm glad i dealt with that before i dragged myself into a mess where i hurt a friend i care about. so yeah...

but i really did have a good day. i'm just tired....oh and i got my cell phone! it's exciting cuz i love being able to text ppl and call them. like i called jesse to know i'd be a little late. and i called home to tell them i'd be home in like 20 min. to 1/2 an hour. it was nice...but yeah. i just hope robert calls tonight. he said he would, but we got cut off yesterday in the middle of our conversation, so he might think i'm mad at him....or sumthin like that... so i still hope he calls. but hey i g2g...

average jane signing off...(life is crazy, but it'll settle soon..)

he didn't stand me up...but...

so he wasn't standing me up. i thought he was. but i just got a call from him like 5 minutes ago. so things are semi okay. but at the same time, they're semi screwed up. here it all is


well, so i mentioned how oyuna wanted to set me up with chris. well, turns out chris is way interested in me. and he got way upset that robert asked me out. so chris wanted robert to not call and just make me think he stood me up. but robert being the nice guy, finally called. cuz he didn't want to lose chris' friendship, but he is way interested in me, he told me all of this, and said that he really wanted to take me out on a date, several dates in fact, but he couldnt' lose his friend. and i really understand how it hurts to lose a friend, so i understand a good amount. so i won't be goin on a date with robert. but i think i will get to in time. i hope so. but it also turns out that chris thinks i'm really interested in him and that oyuna said something to make him think so. but while i like chris, i'm not really really interested in him, yet, as he may think. oyuna must have mistaken my saying i'd love for her to set us up. i was more excited at the prospect of a date with a funny guy. cuz i know i'd have a good time with chris. but also, it seems that chris was probably gonna ask me around the same time robert did. hm...but so robert thinks that chris will ask me out when he sees me on monday. so robert says he wants to let me go out with chris and see how that goes. gosh i've never had this problem of guys fighting over me. cuz that's what happened, according to robert. he and chris got into a fight over me... :( thats' depressing.

but i'm okay. and robert said he would call me tomorrow just to talk. oh my gosh he's perfect. cuz he said that he would like to call me tomorrow, just to talk, then asked me if that was okay. i didn't realize he was so gentlemanly! :D he's perfect! but i still will go out with chris if he asks me...

anyhoo, averagejane signing off....it's been a long day...

he's not calling...

so i don't know. i think he's not calling. it's 8:10 pm now.... i really am worried. i think i might be really depressed cuz i think i've been stood up. my god, i'm such a sucker. i just was persuaded into thinking that this would be a good night and that things would actually go right... okay, enough complaining. he's just not calling... i guess. so i find something else to occupy my time...

averagejane signing off...silly me but still waiting. 8:12 pm now...

it's the night!! :D

so, tonight is the night of the date. right now its 7:29. and he should be calling soon... cuz here's how things went at work.

well, we were really busy and we were down 5 ppl on my level, and 2 in the warehouse. so robert was so busy that he didnt' have time to talk to me until about closing time. so he comes up to me and says,'wow this is the first time today i've had a chance to talk to you.' cuz they were busy. but then he said that he didn't have time to do what he had wanted to do, cuz he had to walk and get his car from someplace. and he had a few other things to do. he told me he wanted to take me out to dinner and a movie, but asked if i would be okay to do something around 8 pm. i told him i was okay with that. but then he asked, 'well, can i have your phone number so i can call you?' and i said, ' that's silly, why would i want to give you my number? ' totally sarcastic, but i gave him my number. then i told him that i was actually getting a cell phone next month. then he realized that this was my home phone number. and he said, ' i'm calling your home phone?' and i said, 'yah, but don't worry. i'll have the house to myself by the time you call.' so he said he'd call me.

and now it's 7:40 pm. i hope he calls. cuz i really want to go out with him. cuz as i sit here i think that maybe he changed his mind, maybe he lost my phone number. or any countless things. and so i sit here waiting.... but yeah....anyhoo...hope he calls...

averagejane signing off...still waiting (now 7:47 pm...)

i've got a date! and i can't wait..... : D

otay.... so today has to be considered one of the funnier days of my existence! :D so i was at work and me and robert did our whole smile/whatever exchange a few times during the day. there is this girl, oyuna, who works with me. she's like late 20s, early 30s and is married. she was helping me fold invoices for mailing and she asked me, 'amy, do you have a boyfriend?' and i told her i didn't. then i said, ' but i have a date on friday! ' and she said, ' oh, with who?' and i said, ' robert.' she looked at me and said, ' robert, like in the warehouse?' and i said, 'yah.' and she told me that she thought he had a girlfriend. and stuff and i told her that i was pretty sure he didn't, but i was gonna actually ask him today just to be safe. and i asked her how she was sure he had a girlfriend. she told me that some girl comes and picks him up after work each day. and i told her that he told me it was his sister emily. and when i saw her pick him up, they acted like brother and sister and not at all like boyfriend/ girlfriend. then, she says,'well, i'm gonna go check on something.' so she leaves. and i don't hear from her for ten minutes.

so i went on my break and i was in the bathroom, when oyuna comes in and says, 'amy?' and i say yah... and so she comes in and says,' maybe i was mistaken, some of the guys have sisters that come and bring them lunch, so it could be his sister that comes and picks him up... sorry about that.' and i told her it wasn't a problem. but then she tells me the reason she had asked if i had a boyfriend, was that she wanted to set me up with one of the other guys that work in the warehouse, chris. he's a good guy. really nice and funny. and she wanted to set me up with him... how funny! but the story gets better.

so i told darren, a guy at work, that oyuna had wanted to set me up with chris. and he makes some comment about what the dating setup we've got here! :D and i found this immensly hilarious. but yeah. so i was gonna ask robert if he had a girlfriend, but turned out i didn't have to. he came up around 4 pm and said, ' i just had a good chat with oyuna.' i said, 'oh... yeah?' and he told me,' i don't have a girlfriend. maybe when i talked to oyuna last i did. my crazy ex that trys to call me here, i broke up with her 2 1/2 weeks ago. but i don't have a girlfriend. but if you don't want to go out with me still, i understand.' i replied,' i do still want to go out with you, i just didn't want to deal with that.' and he said he completely understood. then he went back to the warehouse. then at closing time, he came up front again and said, 'so are we still on for tomorrow?' and i told him 'yeah. so what are we doing?' and he said he hadn't decided yet, he was trying to think of something fun. then he turned to go. but then turned back and said, 'oh, one more thing, i'm a pretty open guy. if you hear something about me, you can come ask me and i'll tell you.' i said,' okay. and i was gonna come ask you about the girlfriend thing, but oyuna beat me to it.' i also told him that i really don't have a hard time coming to ppl about things. so yeah. but we're on for tomorrow night!!! i really cannot wait. so that's been my interesting day!! :D

but then on saturday, i'm gonna hang out with my friend, jesse at the gateway. we're gonna hangout and catch up on life. get to know each other a bit better seeing as we've only met in person once and mostly chatted over the net...but yeah. it'll be fun!

but i'm so excited for tomorrow!!!! i think i'll burst from happiness and excitement! :D

averagejane signing off! : P

boys still silly!! :D

okay, here i go again... here's what happened today. well, so we kind of did our typical hi and smile routine. it wasn't until around 3 or 4 pm that he really said anything important. but, so he came up to me and said, "so are you connie's granddaughter?" and i was totally shocked! connie is the lady who was previously over me in my filing position. and she's short, redhaired, really can be annoying.... but i laughed and said, "no i'm not her granddaughter!" i also said that i'm not related to anyone there at steve regan company. i told him, thank god i'm not related to connie! :D lol that would be almost as bad as my own grandma. but he seemed very relieved to hear i wasn't at all related. cuz he had heard some rumors that i was. but then he was like, okay. and then walked back to the ware house. so then, about twenty minutes later, he came back and said, "so what are you doing friday?" and i said," hmm... fridaY?" and i just thought for two seconds. and he said, "do you have plans already?" and i said, " no, i'm just trying to be sure of i dont'." and he said " okay, so we should do something friday." and i said "yeah, definitely." and he said "okay, so i'll talk to you tomorrow. i'm leaving." i said "okay. bye." and he said 'bye.' lol it took him long enough!!! :D but he asked me out. i'm good! i think this is way funny! but i am excited for friday!! i can't wait!!

but yeah...this has been interesting. to say the least. so now the real wait is over of whether or not he's gonna ask me out. so when i get pics of him, i will post them on here, once i figure that out too! cuz i think he's cute! oh and my sister and mom didnt' really like that he's 26. but you know what? i don't care. i'm an adult now and i can make my own responsible decisions. that kind of sounded whiny. what i meant to say is that i am an adult. i am capable of making responsible decisions. i know when something could be dangerous or risky. but the things in life worth going for mean taking risks. like someone once said, one can never possibly know how far one can go, until one risks going too far. so here i go. it takes a risk in trusting anyone. but i do trust robert. i don't know him altogether too well, but just the way he acts makes me think he's an okay guy. well, very much more than okay cuz he's way cute!! :D lol not biased at all! :D

but yeah enough rambling about boys! that's all for now! :D

average jane signing off! :p

boys and their silly ways... :D

so an update i believe is in order as so much has happened since i last wrote. well, not a lot, but quite some funny things.

so to begin, well, let's start with robert. well, so i mentioned last time that he asked if i had a boyfriend. well, that was thursday. then on friday. the 15th, he came up during the day and asked me how old i was. i told him,"18." then he kind of went, 'oh,' kind of like oh, that's young. but so i found it funny that now i was 18 yrs old, i was still too young in some sense for some things. lol. but, so i just was like whatever. then on monday, he really didn't say anything, and by the night when i went home, i was kind of like, whatever happens, i don't care. cuz it's not like i know the guy really well, and it's like we've barely talked as it is. but yeah... so then i went into work today. and let me preface myself by saying, robert had, i thought, one football jersey that he wears to work everyday, along with a baseball hat. but today, he wore a polo shirt that was blue and yellow striped. so i mentioned to him, 'so you wore something other than your football jersey? what, did you have to wash it?' i did this in a jokingly manner. he kind of laughed like, oh i had that coming. but he said he had several football jerseys that he wore. but he also wasn't wearing his hat. his hair was curly. it was cute. like he'd done his hair that morning, instead of just throwing on a hat over it. i must admit that i didn't recognize him at first without the hat and football jersey. it was terribly funny to me, when i realized that it was robert. he he... but so on to the other things that happened today. well, he came up to me once during the day and asked, 'so is 26 too old for you?' and i kind of was like, 'umm....no.' and he said 'it's too old for you..' i said 'no, it's not too old.' and he seemed satisfied. so then i found this altogether way too funny to keep to myself. so i went and told darren, a married guy like in his 30s or 40s that i work with. i told him all that had happened. and so he said, "so the next question is, 'so what are you doing thursday night?'" and i just laughed. so.... then robert came up later and asked me, ' if i asked you out, would you say yes, or would you say no?' and i told him i'd say yes. and he said, okay. then he went back to the ware house. then i told darren, 'the next question was, "if i asked you out, would you say yes or would you say no?"' and he just laughed. but then just before darren left he asked if robert had said anything. and i said no. so it's kind of funny... maybe tomorrow he might actually ask me out! :D that'd be funny...

but yeah. that's what's been going on in my life. nothing much else except for the fact that i've been driving my little sister crazy by watching pride and prejudice over and over, when i can. but lol it's been great.

so actually, theres a part of me still not sure about robert, like he's funny and cute, but i don't really know him yet and he doesn't really know me. but i guess if we went on a date we'd get a chance to know each other. that is if he ever does ask me on a date....hmm... well, we'll just have to see where this all leads...

average jane signing off...(robert makes me smile :D really big! )