okay. time to update again. well, sweethearts was a blast. i have to say. i mean how could i not have had fun when i went with my two bestest friends?! i took nathan as my date, and steph came with ryan. then we had natalie and her date, colin. it was fun to say the least. we ran late on the day activity, which kind of set us late for the rest of the night. but we worked through it. and i'm not proud to admit it, but i was kind of a bitch that night about some things. i was really especially rude to ryan. and i'm kind of feeling way stupid. cuz i totally acted like a two-year old that didn't get her way. silly, i know. anyhoo, so this is a formal apology online to ryan. i'm sorry. i was way out of line and hope that we can still be friends!
but i really did have a great time. we had a funny group and i can't wait to get the pics. me and nathan got some funny ones.
but, so i'm trying right now to figure out my feelings for one of my friends. i think i might like one of my good friends, but i dont know. he frustrates me sometimes. but a lot of the time, he makes me laugh. and i don't know. cuz i don't want to say anything to screw up a friendship. hmm...maybe i'll just do nothing and just stay friends. not too much a possibility to screw things up. well, knowing me, that's not true.
anyhoo, i'm doing okay. my sister and i are planning a trip to new york this fall. i'm so excited cuz we might go see the play "wicked"!!!! i want to see it so bad. but it should be cool.
oh and i was grounded. it was funny. but my mom has already forgotten. so i was gonna do sumthin with a friend. but i guess i'll just stay home and figure out my feelings. they are so screwed up. and i'm not entirely sure about anything anymore. like i told a friend, i'm sick of complicated. hope i can resolve things soon. maybe i should just follow the example of another friend and just lock myself in my room and stay there until i figure things out. i might just try it.
but, that's life right now. thanx to all my friends for sticking with me even when i'm crabby. :D
spencer thanx for everything! :D
average jane signing off.