i'm sorry.

so i managed to mess things up again. i've kind of started pushing three friends out of my life. quite rudely in fact. so i guess that just shows how messed up i am. but i guess i just feel the need to somewhat write down and explain all that has happened to me. and i guess i'll just start at the beginning

my friend- i'm sorry for the way i've acted. i didnt' mean for it to be this way. i know we've worked part of this out. and yet things are still a bit awkward. but i'm sorry. i hope we're okay.

my ex- wierd way to put it, but you know who you are. you are one of my closest friends and i'm sorry i screwed things up again. i kind of have a way of making things messed up so you can't have a moment of happiness or peace. so i'm sorry. and i do still care.

to another friend- i told you so rudely to get out of my life. i'm sorry i shouldn't have taken it out on you. but, you really don't know the whole situation and i still think it wasn't your place to judge me. you're great, but sometimes you do need to back off. i'm sorry for how i acted though.

i guess this is just apologies also, to everyone else that i've hurt in this. i'm sorry. that's just how my life is, with me ending up screwing up a lot. to those friends that i specifically apologized to, i'll be sending you an email that more specifically addresses what i need to tell you. so please check your email.

sorry.

average jane signing off.