oh the randomness...lol

so you know how they say the little things are what matter? well, some times it's the little things that drag you down...and some times it's the little things that make your day...little things can add up to big things that make you sad, depressed..sometimes. but then there are the little things friends do that can just make you smile. a guy at work was that for me. he just did somethin so little and funny that made me smile and will keep me goin today...

just another random thought. sometimes you feel like you've grown so apart from your friends that you don't know how to be friends anymore. like sure you talk sometimes...but it's sporadic. you called them your best friend...still call them that...but ur not so sure anymore. then those that you really do call your best friend and know that you mean it and they feel the same way. the hard part is that they can't be physically there for you sometimes cuz they have their own life going on and have to take opportunities as they come...but thank god for spring break!! lol

but that's my babble. despite how depressing parts of this sounds, i really am becoming okay with life. i mean there are days and situations that get you down. i sure as hell am not perfect! some will get me down more than others. but i am determined to not stay down for long.

and jsut so that it's in writing...i'm really gonna not go for any guy...like no serious relationship or any possibility. i will continue to date and meet new ppl...i found out that it just doesn't work trying to stay completely away from guys..lol but no guy gets past the first date. i can be jsut friends with guys but nothing romantic-wise past the first date ...lol this may seem silly but it's for my own good. lol

average jane signing off