*sigh*

wow...lol so this is new to me.a different kind of relationship than i've had in the past...but i think the best i've had so far. there is more respect than i've ever experienced...it's simple and cute...it's fun, and i've missed that. the not having to wonder what the guy really wants. when he is just content to have you near, hold your hand, wrap his arms around you. i love it. yes, it is all still very new...and to be honest if someone had said a week or two ago, "he's just your type!!" and that we would be perfect together...lol i would have said they are crazy...lol wait! someone did say that...lol my friend elise did just that....my response was...' oh he's a great guy, really nice and funny...but nah...it wouldn't be anything other than friends..." yet here i am. incredibly happy and in a relationship with jay...a really sweet cute relationship. i know that is the last words a guy would like to have used to describe them...but, they are the best i've got to really explain how i feel....like when i just feel his arms wrap around me. when i feel his hand brush mine, entertwining our fingers...lol i just think thats so cute...and i'm not normally a cutesy girl like that! and best of all he makes me laugh. i can't think of anytime that he hasn't just even made me smile. it's great.

looking back on past relationships, i see where turning points were, where i let relationships lead down someplace, or places, i realize i didn't really want to be. i see that though i felt i had to experience all different things and just let myself open to new ideas, some experiences didn't really need to be had. i don't know if given the chance i would go back and skip some things...because maybe i had to learn the more difficult way. i know some experiences have made me stronger. some have made me appreciate the simple kindness, and simple cute ways a guy can express he likes you, really cares about you.

anyhoo...lol i've babbled enough, and been dwelling too much on the past. it's time to leave it there. i've jsut begun in a great relationship where i can honestly say i've never been happier...i am proud and stoked to wear his class ring...it's on a chain around my neck lol :D anyhoo..can't wait until i get to see him tomorrow....lol wait it already is tomorrow! he he. so tonight....:D anyhoo, laters.

average jane signing off