musings about married life...

hey... so it's the last hour of work... well actually now it's the last half hour :) yay!!!!

but i'm sittin here bored, so i figured i would blog!

well, life is going relatively well :) i must say life has been busy and there's been a lot of things to get used to so far. i'll admit a part of me misses the simplicity of life before. but at the same time it's worth the exchange for the life i have now. i'll admit there are trying times, but in the end it will all work out. it always seems to. and in the end i learn something and become a more adaptive person. it's hard on both of us to just learn to live with each other. lol i swear there are times i feel like i've screwed up, times i've failed jay. but then i see sometimes the feeling is mutual. and i'm learning even more about how we really need to communicate more. i thought i was doing good at that. but today i went and visited my family at lunch. and i kind of broke down. i am tired and sick today, and i've just been frustrated with little things and kind of let it all out. and my mom said to me, that i needed to discuss my frustrations with jay. that i needed to solve it with him. and it brought to mind something jay actually said to me about 3 weeks to a month before we got married. one night i was feeling like crap and ended up goin home early from his place. i did not leave in a good mood however. and it upset jay. and i wasn't sure how i felt at the moment either, whether i was running away from him particularyl or just wanting to be alone, away from anyone. and texting about it later, he said to me that he was worried that the same thing would happen after we were married, that i would leave him and go home to my mom. and i kind of came to when i was sitting there crying and realized that i need to remember that sometimes compromises need to be made and that i really need to work on my communication and that i can always improve in something...

but so i'm doing loads better now. i still feel sick, like i have a sore throat and a headache... but i'll be okay. cuz i'm skipping class tonight to get some rest. lol it also is an excuse to not do my presentation cuz i haven't managed to finish it cuz i've been sick this past few days... lol

well, g2g, work will be out soon :)

averagejane signing off...