thoughts that get me down

so today has just kind of been a whirlwind of things. steph emailed me to see if i still wanted to be her bridesmaid and such. and that i needed to be fitted if so. and to be honest. i don't really want to in some way because it means i would have to be around for the whole damn wedding. and i'm not sure that i can handle that. but then there is a part of me that wants to be there cuz she's my friend. but i'm really not sure i can be happy for her and be good for the whole deal, so i guess maybe i really just don't want to have to be there. i don't know. it's up to her whatever she decides. i'm just sick of hearing about her stupid wedding.

but i was first gonna come on and tell about how i'm beginning to have serious doubts about my second piercing. i mean, just the other day i was gonna wear one of my fav. pair of earrings. but, it didn't look good with the second piercing. and it's been more of a hassle some days to find earrings i like to wear in it. i don't know. i'm thinking of maybe taking it out. plus, this ear piercing links me to steph. but not in a good way. it just reminds me how i kind of felt like steph was just being a sheep in following us and still going through with it, even when it kind of got screwed up. maybe she really wanted it. but things that remind me of what our friendship used to be like kind of hurts. i'm not ready to be really reminded of how she chose dave over me...well, i g2g.

average jane signing off....

oh btw, i got an amzing present and letter from my great friend spencer. it really brightened my day and still does today.. thanx..

oh yeah the other day i did the bitch slap. i told them my friend's name saying she had the gall to marry my ex-boyfriend. it is so funny... cuz the dj was oober shocked and i laughed!! :D really felt good to do it...

hullloo!! it's great to be back!!!

hey you all!!! yeah i'm back after a frickin long vacation!!!! :D san fran was amzing. im so glad that i got to go there twice!! and yeah i did go through with piercing my ears again. all three of us did. and i have to say, my second piercing looks good. and i really thought my parents would flip, but they didn't. it was more of a "i'm disappointed in you" look that i got. and we didn't talk about it. my sis said that my mom looked about to cry. and my lil' sis did cry when i told her. wierd. anyhoo, san fran was amzing. i really could live there for a while, though i was glad to get back to my nice bed. :D lol and other news, well my second trip to san fran was for choir. and guess how we did. well, all of our three choirs won first in our categories!!! we got superior ratings!! lol. the other choirs must have really sucked for us to win first place, cuz when we listend to the tapes of our selves, we sounded terrible. lol really funny to listen to and laugh at ourselves! but also there was a three way tie for the overall best high school choir, all choirs from the same school!!!! and that was......taylorsville high school!!! yeah. shows that graces is just as good as stupid madrigals!!!! hooray!!! oober funn.... but on a somber note, my friend found out during the awards ceremony that her grandpa died. he had died that morning. i felt so sad. and she hasn't been to school these past two days so i hope she's doing okay. and her mom.

anyhoo. as of other news, well, i just have to say taht my family finally came into the 21st century and got comcast cable high speed internet@!!!!!!! hooray!! yeah they got it while i was gone in san fran. so freakin awsome!!! ;D but yeah so it makes things faster. but it means that i don't have my at&t email address anymore. i'm working on getting possibly a comcast email. but for now i'm using my yahoo address, since i already have it. but i might get a comcast email. we'll see. but i just have to say i missed you all while i was gone, especially spencer! thanx again for all those emails, i really felt loved to see them in my inbox! :D anyhoo, that's all for now!!! let you all know more as things happen!!

average jane signing off!! (today is a good day, so far!)

san fran in 2 days

so hey i thought i'd just come and post an update. cuz i won't be here for a lot of time in the next few weeks. but so i get to leave in 2 days and 11 hours!!! oober excited.
and when i come back more likely than not i will be grounded by saturday or sunday. cuz of my ear piercings. so i've decided taht i'm gonna not tell my parents about my piercings until after friday so i can go out with friends. anyhoo, that's it for now.

average jane signing off! (can't wait! )