so...here's the deal. i did something a few weeks ago that i know was wrong, but felt so right...and the thing is, i want to do it again. but my mind is telling me no. my heart, well, i've allowed my emotions to get tied up in this...and nothing can happen right now... and if something did happen, i'd want it to be when both of us are unnattached. that it would happen cuz we both want it. no obligations or guilt trips... that's no way to live life... and yet i want something to happen right now. but it can't.. and i hate myself for wanting it to happen. cuz i think i'm falling fast and hard...in love maybe... cuz there has to be a physical and a mental attraction. wanting to be with someone for reasons beyond the physical part of a relationship. loving them for their mind and honesty. and i've found that...god i'm screwed up but here goes. i would live life wondering always, "what if..."
average jane signing off...
2 comments:
Amy, are you okay? Is this about Robert?
Do you need to talk? You can call me at any time, you know. Email, phone, anything.
Be careful. Not to tell you what to do, but my unsolicited advice would be "Don't do what you will regret. Do what's right, not what's wrong."
I'm here for you, should you need a single thing. Absolutely anything.
I mean that.
I love you,
Spencer
yes. it's about robert. but i just don't want to go into too many details abt. it here...
but thanx...
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