I listen to a weekly podcast called "The Skeptics' Guide to the Universe." I discovered this podcast because of Jay. He occasionally listened to it before we were married and into the first year of our marriage. It was probably into our 2nd year of marriage that he shared it with me because they had discussed something he thought I would find interesting or funny. Shortly after that, I fell in love with the podcast. I got so obsessed with it, that I went back and listened to the podcast from the very first episode. By this point, the podcast had gone on for almost 5 years. There were over a 100 episodes that I listened to and I furiously tried to catch up to the new episodes.
I became enthralled with the people on the podcast, most especially a woman named Rebecca Watson. These people prompted my interest in attending a great conference called TAM (The Amazing Meeting), a convention for skeptics, critical thinkers, and such like minded individuals. The love for science that had been dormant within me from Jr. High and High School, once again began to flourish. Especially in this past year, I have begun to feel like a little kid discovering the wonders of nature and life all over again. This summer, Jay and I went camping. As we sat in front of our campfire one night, a question came to mind: Why does wood burn? Then another string of questions followed: What is actually happening when the wood is burning? Why is fire hot? Why does the wood turn white the hotter it gets? Now, some of these are fundamental questions that had been answered in a chemistry class that I took in my sophomore year of High school. But, it was like I was rediscovering the answers all over again and was able to fully appreciate the wonders of science. It's interesting that it would be now, after I'm done with college for now, that my mind would begin to open up to all this. But, I have to say that a lot of this is due in part to the way my mind has been expanded by this podcast.
Another example of my experience of wonderment happened a month or two ago. It was about 9 pm at night and I was taking out the trash. As I was walking back to my door, I decided to look up at the full moon in the sky. For the first time, I really really looked at the moon. It was so bright and huge that I think I could see some of the huge craters on the surface of the moon. At that moment, it clicked inside me that this wasn't the moon of fairytales, as it had always appeared to me. It was an object in space, something tangible, something real, something that people had traveled to and walked upon, much as those who first explored the North American continent. It was discovered and explored because of science and scientists.
All of the above thoughts and discussions were prompted today by a quote that was given at the end of a Skeptics' Guide podcast episode (at the end of each episode, Jay Novella gives a scientific or skeptical quote). The quote is:
'It’s funny when people accuse science
of being narrow merely because it asks for proof. Science expanded the
number of elements from four to over 100. It expanded treatment options
from bloodletting, herbs and purgatives to the untold riches we have
today. It expanded the universe from a series of armillary spheres to
the current, nigh-endless void. It expanded the number of worlds from
two to billions upon billions. It expanded the age of the universe from
7,000 to 13.5 billion. Science expanded our senses from a tiny range of
sound and light to an endless modulation of wavelengths revealing whole
worlds we knew nothing about. It extended our senses from millimeters to
angstroms, from kilometers to light years. Science discovered volcanoes
under the oceans, terrible lizards who ruled our murine predecessors,
asteroids that shattered the world, glaciers that circled the globe, the
origins of man in ape rather than god. Science exposed the lie of
vitalism, extended lives, cured cancer, discovered vitamins, discovered
radiation (then found it was bad for us). And in the last group of
discoveries, quacks were poised to kill the discoveries and loot their
corpses.'
-William Lawrence Utridge
This quote seemed to sum up the experiences I have been having lately. If one were religious, I might be classified as having a religious experience. But, I am not religious, nor am I inclined to be. I trust in science and all that has been discovered, and has yet to be discovered, through its practices and ways of exploring. So I would like to call my experience a "Scientific Experience." I can only imagine how profound of a "Scientific Experience" that those who stepped on the moon, even if they did not fully realize the significance of what they had accomplished (though I'm sure most of them did).
This quote has also spurred within me a greater desire to learn more about all things relating to science. I want to learn all I can about the world and how it works. Here and now, I declare the start of my journey. It begins with the works of Carl Sagan. I have already begun reading his book, The Demon Haunted World: Science as a Candle in the Dark. I think the next book after that will be Cosmos, the book written to accompany his short television series with the same title. I may come back here and discuss my thoughts about each book. We will see!
Until next time, averagejane signing off!
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Thursday, October 20, 2011
A little late night babbling
So I'm gettin ready for bed, when I get texted by a friend that I've been developing a new friendship with. He's someone I knew back in school, but we never managed to run in the same circle. However, we have found out we have more in common than i initially thought :) Specifically, we both have a great love for dance. He is taking his love to the next level, such as in competing and training, while mine remains a hobby. Yet it is nice to talk occasionally of how when we dance, it's like the world just seems right for those few moments... Okay :) that is just me talkin. I don't know if that is exactly how he feels, but I admit it thrills me to watch him pop. Though my style is different, I appreciate the fluidity of his movements.
by now, I'm sure it appears I'm in love with the guy lol ;) but the point of writing all of this is to write exactly how much this friendship means to me. often I feel I've become the boring married person :) only because I have not kept in touch with friends like I should have. so for me to find another friend, one I can talk to, tease, and remember to branch out in a while, well, that is a good thing. In fact I feel it has even improved my relationship with my hubby. I am taking time for me, time to hang with friends, which is what I needed. I had gotten so fed up with being at home almost every free moment I had, that I had begun taking it out on someone that didn't deserve it.
anyhoo, the point really of all this, is that I'm grateful for all the people I still have the honor of calling my friends, whether I keep in touch as often as I should. I had taken for granted how much energy has to be put into maintaining a friendship, and thus I have lost touch with many ppl. but I also want to say how lucky I am to have new friends, proving that I'm still able to be friendly ;) this new friendship I've been talking about this post has really opened my eyes... and it has been great. It really has been an interesting few weeks :) anyhoo :) I'm done babbling for the night ;) stay tuned for the next episode ;)
until next time, averagejane signing off...
by now, I'm sure it appears I'm in love with the guy lol ;) but the point of writing all of this is to write exactly how much this friendship means to me. often I feel I've become the boring married person :) only because I have not kept in touch with friends like I should have. so for me to find another friend, one I can talk to, tease, and remember to branch out in a while, well, that is a good thing. In fact I feel it has even improved my relationship with my hubby. I am taking time for me, time to hang with friends, which is what I needed. I had gotten so fed up with being at home almost every free moment I had, that I had begun taking it out on someone that didn't deserve it.
anyhoo, the point really of all this, is that I'm grateful for all the people I still have the honor of calling my friends, whether I keep in touch as often as I should. I had taken for granted how much energy has to be put into maintaining a friendship, and thus I have lost touch with many ppl. but I also want to say how lucky I am to have new friends, proving that I'm still able to be friendly ;) this new friendship I've been talking about this post has really opened my eyes... and it has been great. It really has been an interesting few weeks :) anyhoo :) I'm done babbling for the night ;) stay tuned for the next episode ;)
until next time, averagejane signing off...
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Hey...
so, anyone still watching my blog may be surprised to see that I am posting, after almost a year... i know. it's crazy. but, i've just had a pretty good day. one that has really struck me to come attempt to blog once again. also, one will notice that i have revamped my blog design. i'd say it was definitely about time. after the past year, i feel that a new start,of sorts, is in order.
to begin to explain, i saw my longtime friend from Cali tonight. it has been three years since we last were together. and yet, the time has flown and i cannot believe it has been that long. it feels like just yesterday we were developing our friendship, making jokes about being Mr. Collins and Cousin Elizabeth. :) those were some good times. one of the best times of my life. one where i knew where i stood. didn't have to worry about silly things like house payments ;) lol you never know how good you really have it when all you have to worry about is clothes and the occasional meal to pay for. no responsibilities beyond a job and/or school.
but i'm not saying that i want to get rid of my responsibilites that i have now. i really do enjoy my life, but i miss the person i let myself be back then. i need to find a way to incorporate my adventurous and carefree spirit into a life often dictated by responsibilties. i need to find out how to let go once in a while. thankfully, i got a chance tonight. i sat and laughed with friends, talked about the good times of high school, and watched my husband look at me like i was crazy ;) lol i had some good times. and most of that was because i had convinced myself that i didn't mind so much what ppl thought of what i did because my friends had accepted me as i was. i was able to be a goof. i was able to just let myself have fun. all too often lately, i find that i have become boring, predictable, and just no fun. i want to be able to let go so easily as i did in my high school years and a little beyond that. that is my goal for this coming year. i want to find my spunk and spirit again. i want to feel young, instead of an old married woman. that is a lot of my problem. and it all starts with me.
well, now that i babbled enough, i will go to bed. just one last thing, thanks to my friend for coming to visit. you have no idea how much it meant to me. it was a wonderful night, of which i hope many more are to come.
until next time, averagejane signing off.
to begin to explain, i saw my longtime friend from Cali tonight. it has been three years since we last were together. and yet, the time has flown and i cannot believe it has been that long. it feels like just yesterday we were developing our friendship, making jokes about being Mr. Collins and Cousin Elizabeth. :) those were some good times. one of the best times of my life. one where i knew where i stood. didn't have to worry about silly things like house payments ;) lol you never know how good you really have it when all you have to worry about is clothes and the occasional meal to pay for. no responsibilities beyond a job and/or school.
but i'm not saying that i want to get rid of my responsibilites that i have now. i really do enjoy my life, but i miss the person i let myself be back then. i need to find a way to incorporate my adventurous and carefree spirit into a life often dictated by responsibilties. i need to find out how to let go once in a while. thankfully, i got a chance tonight. i sat and laughed with friends, talked about the good times of high school, and watched my husband look at me like i was crazy ;) lol i had some good times. and most of that was because i had convinced myself that i didn't mind so much what ppl thought of what i did because my friends had accepted me as i was. i was able to be a goof. i was able to just let myself have fun. all too often lately, i find that i have become boring, predictable, and just no fun. i want to be able to let go so easily as i did in my high school years and a little beyond that. that is my goal for this coming year. i want to find my spunk and spirit again. i want to feel young, instead of an old married woman. that is a lot of my problem. and it all starts with me.
well, now that i babbled enough, i will go to bed. just one last thing, thanks to my friend for coming to visit. you have no idea how much it meant to me. it was a wonderful night, of which i hope many more are to come.
until next time, averagejane signing off.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Just another day
Hey ... so i know my last post forever ago said i would be blogging more on my other blog. but that is more still jay's blog. so i needed a place to just write. lol if i had had my journal here, i would probably have written there.
but, so i'm at work and i really should be working. but i really feel like shit today. and its not just today. it's like a pattern over the last few months. i know its normal to have down days, but some days its just ridiculous. like today, i feel on the verge of tears. and the morning started out really good. i'm not sure what is wrong with me. i ache all over. and every so often, i get this pain in my chest that lasts most of the day. then it will go away and i forget about it til the next time it happens. i swear my body hates me. anyhoo... enough about that.
i just wish somedays that i could turn back time a bit. everything was so simple when i was younger. not so many cares in the world. and of course money seemed to be a bit more abundant :) but it just seems that everything is moving so fast and that if i don't make the right choice i'll screw up everything. and some days i wonder if some of my choices in the past are starting to affect my life now. i mean i expected them to affect it, just in a better way. it's so confusing. and frustrating. i'm down so much and tired. i was physically sick with a cold or something last week, but this all seems so much different. I wish i could just wake up one day and have it all gone. unfortunately it doesn't work that way.
then there is the whole religion issue. i've officially declared myself as agnostic atheist on my facebook page. but it's just so hard to let go of religious issues and traditions that i've been indoctrinated with for years now. i mean, i just find it so hard to tell my parents how i really feel. like they keep trying to ask me how church was each sunday that i happen to visit. and my dad slipped in that i should go to the temple too sometime (he was going that day, a tuesday night or something). but it's just hard. i hoped it would be easier.
and its just been a tough couple of weeks. work is difficult sometimes. that's not to say that the work i have to do is hard. its actually really easy. its just the work relationships can be awful. i've not seen this much drama since i was in high school. my supervisor sometimes acts like she is a kid, despite being a good 10 or so years older than me, and takes her frustration out on us lowly assistants. i only get through some of those days because of the other assistant here in the office. she is older than me by like 10 years or so. but she still understands how it all is here, cuz she has only been here a year longer than me. our supervisor really can be rude. and its way too damn frustrating. oh and the great thing, her supervisor is her father. it's ridiculous. i can't stand him much either. he lets things slide and then blames us for some of his problems. like we had a workshop that we sent materials out for. some of the handbooks were older than the newer ones by two weeks and he got mad that we had sent that version out when he hadn't bothered to notify us that there was a newer version. God! he is annoying!!! anyhoo....thats my work vent. i really do love the other gal i work with. she is a sweetheart.
anyhoo, i think i've wasted enough space here. it feels good to be able to vent here..
until next time...
averagejane signing off
PS. Song of the day is "Stuttering" by Fefe Dobson. reflects my mood, while not necessarily the sentiment or feeling
but, so i'm at work and i really should be working. but i really feel like shit today. and its not just today. it's like a pattern over the last few months. i know its normal to have down days, but some days its just ridiculous. like today, i feel on the verge of tears. and the morning started out really good. i'm not sure what is wrong with me. i ache all over. and every so often, i get this pain in my chest that lasts most of the day. then it will go away and i forget about it til the next time it happens. i swear my body hates me. anyhoo... enough about that.
i just wish somedays that i could turn back time a bit. everything was so simple when i was younger. not so many cares in the world. and of course money seemed to be a bit more abundant :) but it just seems that everything is moving so fast and that if i don't make the right choice i'll screw up everything. and some days i wonder if some of my choices in the past are starting to affect my life now. i mean i expected them to affect it, just in a better way. it's so confusing. and frustrating. i'm down so much and tired. i was physically sick with a cold or something last week, but this all seems so much different. I wish i could just wake up one day and have it all gone. unfortunately it doesn't work that way.
then there is the whole religion issue. i've officially declared myself as agnostic atheist on my facebook page. but it's just so hard to let go of religious issues and traditions that i've been indoctrinated with for years now. i mean, i just find it so hard to tell my parents how i really feel. like they keep trying to ask me how church was each sunday that i happen to visit. and my dad slipped in that i should go to the temple too sometime (he was going that day, a tuesday night or something). but it's just hard. i hoped it would be easier.
and its just been a tough couple of weeks. work is difficult sometimes. that's not to say that the work i have to do is hard. its actually really easy. its just the work relationships can be awful. i've not seen this much drama since i was in high school. my supervisor sometimes acts like she is a kid, despite being a good 10 or so years older than me, and takes her frustration out on us lowly assistants. i only get through some of those days because of the other assistant here in the office. she is older than me by like 10 years or so. but she still understands how it all is here, cuz she has only been here a year longer than me. our supervisor really can be rude. and its way too damn frustrating. oh and the great thing, her supervisor is her father. it's ridiculous. i can't stand him much either. he lets things slide and then blames us for some of his problems. like we had a workshop that we sent materials out for. some of the handbooks were older than the newer ones by two weeks and he got mad that we had sent that version out when he hadn't bothered to notify us that there was a newer version. God! he is annoying!!! anyhoo....thats my work vent. i really do love the other gal i work with. she is a sweetheart.
anyhoo, i think i've wasted enough space here. it feels good to be able to vent here..
until next time...
averagejane signing off
PS. Song of the day is "Stuttering" by Fefe Dobson. reflects my mood, while not necessarily the sentiment or feeling
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
My Other Blog
This short post is for those of you that follow my blog... or at least used to as I don't really write here :) I try to update my other blog, the one I share with my hubby, at least every few months.... lol a little more than I do here. So, please feel free to check it out!!! the URL is http://www.lifeatwarp10.com/
Hope you enjoy it ;)
Hope you enjoy it ;)
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
late night posts...
So. I just have to say i find it funny at jay is out like a light. I know you are probably all confused. Well for the past few nights jay has had to work a shift at work starting at midnight. Lol and he was always so sad he could not be home with me. And now on the first night back on a regular shift, he is now dead to the world :) lol it just makes me laugh!
I have to admit that it is nice to have him home :) lol the only problem is im still kind of awake. Thats half the reason im posting this. The other half is to try out this posting via my cell phone :) cool new feature i guess :) lol its fun. Im sure ill be fixing this post in the morning. gotta fix this big paragraph and give it a title......
averagejane signing off :)
I have to admit that it is nice to have him home :) lol the only problem is im still kind of awake. Thats half the reason im posting this. The other half is to try out this posting via my cell phone :) cool new feature i guess :) lol its fun. Im sure ill be fixing this post in the morning. gotta fix this big paragraph and give it a title......
averagejane signing off :)
That giddy feeling
i don't know what exactly it is about romance movies that make you just wanna curl up with happiness and giddiness. i just watched "never Been Kissed" ( one of my favorite of romantic comedies) and i've watched it several times before. and though i know exactly how it's gonna end, my heart stops to see if the guy will come. and then when he comes, my heart flutters and i get that giddy feeling as mentioned above.
we as society are addicted to these shows. well, most of the women in society. we love seeing these happy endings, where the girl gets the guy.... where it all really ends happily ever after. i don't mind it so much. sometimes it is just good to get lost in a story not my own. it's nice to see that everything does work out sometimes.
well, i don't mean to say it doesn't work out in real life. it's just they always portray it as so easy in the movies. you fall in love, and live happily ever after. sometimes it's too scripted. one thing i've found is that in real life, it is most of the time a bit of work. but in the end, it makes it even more special that you found this special guy. cuz with all the forces working against you, no matter the struggles or problems you overcame, you can still have your happily ever after. you will have that someone to hold you when you're sad. someone to kiss away the tears. someone to celebrate life with. someone to stay with you through the years. someone to mark the years with. it's work, but i've found that it makes that giddy feeling even more special.
average jane signing off...
we as society are addicted to these shows. well, most of the women in society. we love seeing these happy endings, where the girl gets the guy.... where it all really ends happily ever after. i don't mind it so much. sometimes it is just good to get lost in a story not my own. it's nice to see that everything does work out sometimes.
well, i don't mean to say it doesn't work out in real life. it's just they always portray it as so easy in the movies. you fall in love, and live happily ever after. sometimes it's too scripted. one thing i've found is that in real life, it is most of the time a bit of work. but in the end, it makes it even more special that you found this special guy. cuz with all the forces working against you, no matter the struggles or problems you overcame, you can still have your happily ever after. you will have that someone to hold you when you're sad. someone to kiss away the tears. someone to celebrate life with. someone to stay with you through the years. someone to mark the years with. it's work, but i've found that it makes that giddy feeling even more special.
average jane signing off...
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Dreams
when it comes to dreams, there are two basic beliefs about why we have dreams and what they mean.
belief 1: dreams mean nothing, it is jsut random. it is just an epiphenomenon that is the mental activity that occurs during REM sleep.
belief 2: dreams have a meaning. we dream because either we need to declutter our minds, our subconcious is trying to speak to us, or we have problems from our daily lives that our mind couldn't work through while concious, so we have dreams to work them out. This is just putting this belief in simple terms.
myself, i have always followed with belief two. i believed that our minds are trying to tell us something or we have something that our mind needed to work out when it was concentrating on the other dozen items we do during the day. it made sense to me to believe this way. from having dreams so simple where i couldn't find a bathroom in my dream and waking up to find i needed to use the bathroom, to slightly more complex dreams of being naked for some reason while i was in public in school or the mall or someplace - which i interpreted that i was trying so hard to be someone else to fit in, i was afraid to show who i really was, afraid to be me with no mask on (signifying the nakedness)- i really believed that my dreams told me something. i found that in some dreams i could even wake myself up, especially in some scary ones..
another set of dreams i liked were the ones where i would meet a handsome stranger, and a romantic tale would ensue. whether in modern times, or in medieval times where i was a princess. this all was just my true desires in life. i wanted to be in a fairytale, i wanted to be in the stories that i read. i wanted adventure, something more to my life. and i found my escape in books, and my escape came real in my dreams.
however, sometimes, i find i would rather believe in belief #1 when it comes to some dreams. i find that the meaning i find from some dreams, i would rather believe were jsut random, not something that my mind needed to work out, or some secret desire i have hidden until my subconcious brings it into my dreams. i don't want to believe that such things lie within me. can they? or are these just really random dreams? with no significance. i would like to believe this, but i can't... so i just write them down, and push them from my mind, hoping that these dreams are not revealing a side of me i'd rather not know about.
anyhoo....dreams are interesting things..
average jane signing off...
belief 1: dreams mean nothing, it is jsut random. it is just an epiphenomenon that is the mental activity that occurs during REM sleep.
belief 2: dreams have a meaning. we dream because either we need to declutter our minds, our subconcious is trying to speak to us, or we have problems from our daily lives that our mind couldn't work through while concious, so we have dreams to work them out. This is just putting this belief in simple terms.
myself, i have always followed with belief two. i believed that our minds are trying to tell us something or we have something that our mind needed to work out when it was concentrating on the other dozen items we do during the day. it made sense to me to believe this way. from having dreams so simple where i couldn't find a bathroom in my dream and waking up to find i needed to use the bathroom, to slightly more complex dreams of being naked for some reason while i was in public in school or the mall or someplace - which i interpreted that i was trying so hard to be someone else to fit in, i was afraid to show who i really was, afraid to be me with no mask on (signifying the nakedness)- i really believed that my dreams told me something. i found that in some dreams i could even wake myself up, especially in some scary ones..
another set of dreams i liked were the ones where i would meet a handsome stranger, and a romantic tale would ensue. whether in modern times, or in medieval times where i was a princess. this all was just my true desires in life. i wanted to be in a fairytale, i wanted to be in the stories that i read. i wanted adventure, something more to my life. and i found my escape in books, and my escape came real in my dreams.
however, sometimes, i find i would rather believe in belief #1 when it comes to some dreams. i find that the meaning i find from some dreams, i would rather believe were jsut random, not something that my mind needed to work out, or some secret desire i have hidden until my subconcious brings it into my dreams. i don't want to believe that such things lie within me. can they? or are these just really random dreams? with no significance. i would like to believe this, but i can't... so i just write them down, and push them from my mind, hoping that these dreams are not revealing a side of me i'd rather not know about.
anyhoo....dreams are interesting things..
average jane signing off...
Monday, June 29, 2009
i'm trying :)
so hey.... i know i promised to blog more so here i am to write a little before i head off to class :) lol
so the past week suprisingly has gone by fast.... lol but pretty much all that i do now is go to class in the mornings and work at night.... lol can't wait til i don't have to work this job... lol it's an alright job when i have some project to do, or customers to help... but otherwise its boring..
but i've been working on studying for a test i need to take. so far it looks like i need lots more studying lol.... i do that on my free time at work... lol my work practically pays me to educate myself. it's awesome :) lol that's one good thing about having nothing to do. but then i sometimes have to watch out for the head guys at work, cuz they don't like us doing it. but my main supervisor doesn't seem to mind.
so.... taylorsville dayzz celebration was this weekend :) lol it was fun :) i got to watch a parade and run out in the street to get candy they threw out from the floats and cars :) lol jay thought i looked like a little kid doing so lol... but i had fun
then there was fireworks that night... saturday that is. i love watching fireworks. it was weird to think that just a year ago, me and jay were still dating and i had invited him to come to the fireworks with me :) wow.... it's so crazy :) lol
anyhoo, better pack up for class!!! i'll write more later this week :)
so the past week suprisingly has gone by fast.... lol but pretty much all that i do now is go to class in the mornings and work at night.... lol can't wait til i don't have to work this job... lol it's an alright job when i have some project to do, or customers to help... but otherwise its boring..
but i've been working on studying for a test i need to take. so far it looks like i need lots more studying lol.... i do that on my free time at work... lol my work practically pays me to educate myself. it's awesome :) lol that's one good thing about having nothing to do. but then i sometimes have to watch out for the head guys at work, cuz they don't like us doing it. but my main supervisor doesn't seem to mind.
so.... taylorsville dayzz celebration was this weekend :) lol it was fun :) i got to watch a parade and run out in the street to get candy they threw out from the floats and cars :) lol jay thought i looked like a little kid doing so lol... but i had fun
then there was fireworks that night... saturday that is. i love watching fireworks. it was weird to think that just a year ago, me and jay were still dating and i had invited him to come to the fireworks with me :) wow.... it's so crazy :) lol
anyhoo, better pack up for class!!! i'll write more later this week :)
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
a new start
Well, it's not really a new start.... just seems like it. it's been a while since i've posted... and the other blog i was gonna start posting more on, well , it is still down. and i really jsut felt like blogging today. probably should start with a recap of whats been going on in life since i last posted... well the important stuff...
so i last posted december. wow.... so long ago... thats about when i stopped really writing in my journal too... just kind of got busy i guess. Well, i survived the new years celebrations... which means i fell asleep at like 11 pm.... lol but it was my first new years being married :) lol so weird still to think of all these firsts. but then i quit my job and was done at steve regan co. on january 30th. I was going to school at the time and they had already paid for my semester, so i was set! it was awesome. so the classes i had were math 1010, chem 1010, and hlac 1096, which is a p.e. class... he he... i took it online !!! it was awesome :) but i passed all my classes with straight A's :) i was so proud of myself :) lol my first 4.0 since i began high school :)
but in about may i started a new job. :) i work now at the Bookstore at the University i will attend in fall. i work up in textbooks, which means i organize books and such... and help ppl find their books for their classes. right now it's really dead cuz its summer.... so dead... lol but the best part of the job will be having a job close to school in the fall... actually, the best part will be that i get to "check out" my textbooks, in a manner of speaking, when i start classes next fall. meaning i don't have to pay a cent for textbooks, i just borrow them from the bookstore and return them come end of semester. it will save me so much money... and i am so lucky...
oh i forgot to mention! i attended graduation at SLCC as a graduate. I am so stoked :) i can't wait to really be done there. they had the actual ceremony on May 8th. but i don't graduate until i finish these two classes i have this semester. i have math 1050 and soc 2370. my soc class is called Gender in Society. it is really a fun class.... i've only had two classes so far of it, but the professor is very knowledgable and says things that really makes you think.... it's really a good thing...
but yeah... so i will start at the U in the fall. i am so stoked! this is what i've dreamed of doing since i started high school. especially when my brother started there before his mission. but i will be majoring in English for certain. i am debating about whether to also minor in psychology or sociology. and also wondering if i should just do a double major and do it in either psychology or sociology.... seeing as i will be taking enough classes on my own just to fill spaces where i can't take english classes ... but yeah :)
as you can see, life is going good :) i can't imagine jay not being in it.
oh! i should update with how to things are with jay a bit. well, his work contract expires in august, so he is starting to apply for jobs around here... make sure that if they don't renew the contract, that he has something. i know he can find a job, cuz he is an incredibly smart man... lol it's awesome :) i am proud of him :) i don't think i mentioned that he passed 2 0r 3, i think, tests that he didn't think he would. it has brought him so close to getting all the certs you can get in the computer, or IT , business :) it's been great. Good job jay...
but life is fun, crazy busy. still, i promise i'll be on here at least once a week to update :)
averagejane signing off...
so i last posted december. wow.... so long ago... thats about when i stopped really writing in my journal too... just kind of got busy i guess. Well, i survived the new years celebrations... which means i fell asleep at like 11 pm.... lol but it was my first new years being married :) lol so weird still to think of all these firsts. but then i quit my job and was done at steve regan co. on january 30th. I was going to school at the time and they had already paid for my semester, so i was set! it was awesome. so the classes i had were math 1010, chem 1010, and hlac 1096, which is a p.e. class... he he... i took it online !!! it was awesome :) but i passed all my classes with straight A's :) i was so proud of myself :) lol my first 4.0 since i began high school :)
but in about may i started a new job. :) i work now at the Bookstore at the University i will attend in fall. i work up in textbooks, which means i organize books and such... and help ppl find their books for their classes. right now it's really dead cuz its summer.... so dead... lol but the best part of the job will be having a job close to school in the fall... actually, the best part will be that i get to "check out" my textbooks, in a manner of speaking, when i start classes next fall. meaning i don't have to pay a cent for textbooks, i just borrow them from the bookstore and return them come end of semester. it will save me so much money... and i am so lucky...
oh i forgot to mention! i attended graduation at SLCC as a graduate. I am so stoked :) i can't wait to really be done there. they had the actual ceremony on May 8th. but i don't graduate until i finish these two classes i have this semester. i have math 1050 and soc 2370. my soc class is called Gender in Society. it is really a fun class.... i've only had two classes so far of it, but the professor is very knowledgable and says things that really makes you think.... it's really a good thing...
but yeah... so i will start at the U in the fall. i am so stoked! this is what i've dreamed of doing since i started high school. especially when my brother started there before his mission. but i will be majoring in English for certain. i am debating about whether to also minor in psychology or sociology. and also wondering if i should just do a double major and do it in either psychology or sociology.... seeing as i will be taking enough classes on my own just to fill spaces where i can't take english classes ... but yeah :)
as you can see, life is going good :) i can't imagine jay not being in it.
oh! i should update with how to things are with jay a bit. well, his work contract expires in august, so he is starting to apply for jobs around here... make sure that if they don't renew the contract, that he has something. i know he can find a job, cuz he is an incredibly smart man... lol it's awesome :) i am proud of him :) i don't think i mentioned that he passed 2 0r 3, i think, tests that he didn't think he would. it has brought him so close to getting all the certs you can get in the computer, or IT , business :) it's been great. Good job jay...
but life is fun, crazy busy. still, i promise i'll be on here at least once a week to update :)
averagejane signing off...
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Tuesday, December 9, 2008
reflections over the last year...pt. 2
okay so as my husband pointed out, i have not put up a part 2 yet! lol so i figure i better get on it ;)
i know it's been almost 3 weeks since my last post, but i'll try to follow up with what i was thinkin :)
i was kind of in a funk that night that i was posting so this will be a little different.. but the general idea is that the past year things have been crazy. i've done some things i'm not proud of... though they have made me stronger and into the person i am today. And, i've done some things, made some choices that have been the best times of my life. among those that i am most grateful for, is the moment i began dating jay. i'll admit that with the path i had been going down, that i didn't think i would find someone like jay, someone to love me despite all my faults and bad choices. it was funny too, cuz i realized how much i didn't know jay in high school. i found out we were so similar in what paths in life we had begun to walk down. or tumble down... as the case may be. lol but then by some chance he found me... and in turn we both began to see that there was a better path. one that was meant for us to walk together... and so we began it. on october 18th. the best day of my life, at this point. i'm sure i'll have many best days to add to that down the road. but yeah
so i know in the last post i was mostly dwelling on the bad stuff that had happened and that i had gotten into... so they weren't the worst things i could have done... but they were stuff i will avoid in the future. i won't dwell on them any more because there was this quote i found and it said, "Don't let yesterday use up too much of today." (Will Rogers) and ya know what? i realized that i do that all too often. i've been fallin into an old habit of letting small things bug me... and lingering on them. and it's been pullin me down. i need to just let go! and so here i go.... but oh... another good quote to go with that is "some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong, sometimes it's letting go" That one applies to a lot in my life.! honestly.
anyway.. this is my pt. 2 and final reflection over the past year. it's been a year of change and wonderful beginnings! i can't wait to see what this year brings :) (maybe a change in job :) i hope!)
but life is great! i love jay more than i thought possible! (i'll always be ur girlfriend, btw, jay :D )
averagejane signing off :)
i know it's been almost 3 weeks since my last post, but i'll try to follow up with what i was thinkin :)
i was kind of in a funk that night that i was posting so this will be a little different.. but the general idea is that the past year things have been crazy. i've done some things i'm not proud of... though they have made me stronger and into the person i am today. And, i've done some things, made some choices that have been the best times of my life. among those that i am most grateful for, is the moment i began dating jay. i'll admit that with the path i had been going down, that i didn't think i would find someone like jay, someone to love me despite all my faults and bad choices. it was funny too, cuz i realized how much i didn't know jay in high school. i found out we were so similar in what paths in life we had begun to walk down. or tumble down... as the case may be. lol but then by some chance he found me... and in turn we both began to see that there was a better path. one that was meant for us to walk together... and so we began it. on october 18th. the best day of my life, at this point. i'm sure i'll have many best days to add to that down the road. but yeah
so i know in the last post i was mostly dwelling on the bad stuff that had happened and that i had gotten into... so they weren't the worst things i could have done... but they were stuff i will avoid in the future. i won't dwell on them any more because there was this quote i found and it said, "Don't let yesterday use up too much of today." (Will Rogers) and ya know what? i realized that i do that all too often. i've been fallin into an old habit of letting small things bug me... and lingering on them. and it's been pullin me down. i need to just let go! and so here i go.... but oh... another good quote to go with that is "some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong, sometimes it's letting go" That one applies to a lot in my life.! honestly.
anyway.. this is my pt. 2 and final reflection over the past year. it's been a year of change and wonderful beginnings! i can't wait to see what this year brings :) (maybe a change in job :) i hope!)
but life is great! i love jay more than i thought possible! (i'll always be ur girlfriend, btw, jay :D )
averagejane signing off :)
Thursday, November 20, 2008
reflections over the last year...pt. 1
so my birthday is almost over... in about 22 min, i will just be back to normal life... no special day. lol not that this year felt any different to me... well that is adding a year, felt no different to me. but this year has been one crazy hell of a ride. it's kind of fun to look back. well, on most parts. i find there are many things in the past year i've done that i'm not proud of, some things i wish i could forget, some things i wish had never happened. yet as i sit here wishing they hadn't happened, i look at my life now, and what has brought me here. Almost every thing, big or small, that i wish had never taken place, wish i hadn't been stupid and naive enough to fall for, has brought me to the person i am today. Am i happy with who i am? mostly, yes i am. i sure am a lot happier as the person i am today, vs. the person i was 6-10 months ago. at the time, i was in denial, but i was on a path that i really was not truly happy on...sure i had fun, tried some things i had been dying to do...but did they really matter in the end? i mean, some things were just stupid and whatever. but some things, i really wish i had never had to experience... well...
now i have to head off to the twilight movie!!!! lol we got 12:30 pm showing tickets, cuz we were too late for the midnight showings...lol
i'll finish my thoughts on this when i get back...
averagejane signing off
now i have to head off to the twilight movie!!!! lol we got 12:30 pm showing tickets, cuz we were too late for the midnight showings...lol
i'll finish my thoughts on this when i get back...
averagejane signing off
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
election day
hey...so i'm sittin here at work, feelin really restless....it's crazy... cuz i have work to do, so i shouldn't be bored...yet i am.. i want to type and such, but i don't want to type my work. i just want to babble on here...lol i know i'm crazy!
but so more on life and musings 'bout it. well today is election day! i voted! lol it was my first time really voting...like i voted in the preliminaries, but this time it was the real thing... like i was making a choice about the president for real. and other such offices in my state. i think the one thing i would do better next year would be to read more about the candidates and propostions and ammendment propositions... i was able to read a little, but i wish i had known more, as i ended up playin e-ni-me-ni-mine-e-oh...lol that's how i would say it...but in other words...i just had to guess. lol that probably isn't the best way. but yeah...
anyhoo..so we wait in anticipation of tomorrow to see who will be our next president. i'll admit that i'm leaning very much away from obama. i have to say that is in part because of that obama wants to shut down the NASA program and that would be sad :( but ya...
so the work day is almost over! yay...he he well close enough to over :) lol well g2g
average jane signing off..
but so more on life and musings 'bout it. well today is election day! i voted! lol it was my first time really voting...like i voted in the preliminaries, but this time it was the real thing... like i was making a choice about the president for real. and other such offices in my state. i think the one thing i would do better next year would be to read more about the candidates and propostions and ammendment propositions... i was able to read a little, but i wish i had known more, as i ended up playin e-ni-me-ni-mine-e-oh...lol that's how i would say it...but in other words...i just had to guess. lol that probably isn't the best way. but yeah...
anyhoo..so we wait in anticipation of tomorrow to see who will be our next president. i'll admit that i'm leaning very much away from obama. i have to say that is in part because of that obama wants to shut down the NASA program and that would be sad :( but ya...
so the work day is almost over! yay...he he well close enough to over :) lol well g2g
average jane signing off..
Monday, November 3, 2008
musings about married life...
hey... so it's the last hour of work... well actually now it's the last half hour :) yay!!!!
but i'm sittin here bored, so i figured i would blog!
well, life is going relatively well :) i must say life has been busy and there's been a lot of things to get used to so far. i'll admit a part of me misses the simplicity of life before. but at the same time it's worth the exchange for the life i have now. i'll admit there are trying times, but in the end it will all work out. it always seems to. and in the end i learn something and become a more adaptive person. it's hard on both of us to just learn to live with each other. lol i swear there are times i feel like i've screwed up, times i've failed jay. but then i see sometimes the feeling is mutual. and i'm learning even more about how we really need to communicate more. i thought i was doing good at that. but today i went and visited my family at lunch. and i kind of broke down. i am tired and sick today, and i've just been frustrated with little things and kind of let it all out. and my mom said to me, that i needed to discuss my frustrations with jay. that i needed to solve it with him. and it brought to mind something jay actually said to me about 3 weeks to a month before we got married. one night i was feeling like crap and ended up goin home early from his place. i did not leave in a good mood however. and it upset jay. and i wasn't sure how i felt at the moment either, whether i was running away from him particularyl or just wanting to be alone, away from anyone. and texting about it later, he said to me that he was worried that the same thing would happen after we were married, that i would leave him and go home to my mom. and i kind of came to when i was sitting there crying and realized that i need to remember that sometimes compromises need to be made and that i really need to work on my communication and that i can always improve in something...
but so i'm doing loads better now. i still feel sick, like i have a sore throat and a headache... but i'll be okay. cuz i'm skipping class tonight to get some rest. lol it also is an excuse to not do my presentation cuz i haven't managed to finish it cuz i've been sick this past few days... lol
well, g2g, work will be out soon :)
averagejane signing off...
but i'm sittin here bored, so i figured i would blog!
well, life is going relatively well :) i must say life has been busy and there's been a lot of things to get used to so far. i'll admit a part of me misses the simplicity of life before. but at the same time it's worth the exchange for the life i have now. i'll admit there are trying times, but in the end it will all work out. it always seems to. and in the end i learn something and become a more adaptive person. it's hard on both of us to just learn to live with each other. lol i swear there are times i feel like i've screwed up, times i've failed jay. but then i see sometimes the feeling is mutual. and i'm learning even more about how we really need to communicate more. i thought i was doing good at that. but today i went and visited my family at lunch. and i kind of broke down. i am tired and sick today, and i've just been frustrated with little things and kind of let it all out. and my mom said to me, that i needed to discuss my frustrations with jay. that i needed to solve it with him. and it brought to mind something jay actually said to me about 3 weeks to a month before we got married. one night i was feeling like crap and ended up goin home early from his place. i did not leave in a good mood however. and it upset jay. and i wasn't sure how i felt at the moment either, whether i was running away from him particularyl or just wanting to be alone, away from anyone. and texting about it later, he said to me that he was worried that the same thing would happen after we were married, that i would leave him and go home to my mom. and i kind of came to when i was sitting there crying and realized that i need to remember that sometimes compromises need to be made and that i really need to work on my communication and that i can always improve in something...
but so i'm doing loads better now. i still feel sick, like i have a sore throat and a headache... but i'll be okay. cuz i'm skipping class tonight to get some rest. lol it also is an excuse to not do my presentation cuz i haven't managed to finish it cuz i've been sick this past few days... lol
well, g2g, work will be out soon :)
averagejane signing off...
Saturday, October 18, 2008
tired lol
so i figured i should blog while my ipod is uploadin a few songs... then it went really fast and now i'm actually tired... so i think i will sleep...
but first i just had to say...i'll be married in just under 16 hours...lol how crazy is that!!!?!?!? lol but it's cool and i'm tired...so 'til after my wedding and honey moon, i bid you all adieu!
averagejane signing off...
but first i just had to say...i'll be married in just under 16 hours...lol how crazy is that!!!?!?!? lol but it's cool and i'm tired...so 'til after my wedding and honey moon, i bid you all adieu!
averagejane signing off...
Friday, October 3, 2008
hi! i know it's been awhile :D
hey! it's me...lol i know its' been a while...i've been busy...and now i'm stuck doing nothin at the moment at work, yet they won't let me go home :( anyhoo... let me explain...
So today is inventory day at my work. This means we close up our store to the public and we break up into teams of three or four ppl and count all the product in our store. however, we have way too much stuff to count it all in one day. so we have one or two days in october and one or two days in december. (or is it january....? ) anyhoo. so the key is the faster we get the count done the first day, then we may not have to come back on the second day... usually being on a friday/saturday combo... so here i sit having done both my count and audited another group's count...well partial audit cuz we couldn't find half the shit out there. that was the problem with our counting. we were assigned to a code that really only two guys know much about it... and they were dealing with the other 2/3 of the code... talk about screwed up.... but we eventually figured out the most of it. i was assigned to be just a writer... which was okay by me... lol i had a lot of codes to sort through to find the right one though...lol :) loads of fun.
but now i sit here with nothing to do. i am simply waiting for them to come and audit my codes and such. but they have to go through a few other ppl. i can't wait til i get to go. cuz then i get to go to jay's and watch a movie and eat some food...lol food sounds good. i'm also oober thristy lol been drinkin water and soda lots...
so life.... how has it been you may ask. busy! that pretty much sums it up... stressed and hectic also work well! But plans are coming along splendidly for the wedding. we have a place to have the ceremony and reception. we have jay's bishop that is goin to marry us. we will have a marriage license on monday :) hopefully... lol i have a dress, jay has a tux rented. my bridesmaids dresses are almost done, flowers ordered...cake ordered. announcements sent out yesterday/today... yah... most everything done.
as to life otherwise. lol there really hasn't been much other than wedding stuff for the past little while...lol except school and me packin up my room to move. school has been going decently. i've found that i can just go to class and read a book like whatever...( ie: Jane Eyre is what i've been reading lately...) just to get the attendance points and learn all i need to at home. i'm really learning nothing new in class. it's like a review of all i learned in jr. high.... and that's just sad that i already know all this stuff...i'm so bored. but then i go online and do the homework... i so could have taken this class online. which is what i'm considering doing for spanish 1020 ( i'm taking 1010). but yah...
then my other class is POLS 1100... which is american gov't and politics 101... it's really quite interesting i have to admit. we get into some really cool discussions and sometimes i feel like i know enough to actually put my opinion out there. the funny thing is that because of this class i find myself paying more attention to certain issues. like the whole bank bailout bill thingy... i find myself watchin the articles online to see what they are saying. i'm finding myself watching the stocks to see if they are going up or down in points, even though i don't get what the points really mean, besides that up is good and bad is down... lol but i really feel like i'm actually becoming more aware of things that i have wanted to know more about. that's why i'm glad that i was able to take this class. it does help also that jay knows somethings like this too...like some things with stocks and what is kind of going on in the political world....at least more than i do. it's kind of good. cuz that mixed with what i'm learning on my own helps me in my class. it's really quite neat! lol if i haven't mentioned that yet.
but yah...oh ! so i started packin up my room...it was quite funny actually. i knew right off that the most of my packing would be of my books and movies. the funny part is that i didn't realize that it would take all the boxes i had already collected, plus a few i borrowed from family..., to box just my books up! lol it was funny. then jay came over like last night. he saw the boxes and he said, " is that just your books?" lol i said yup! he kind of smiled and said... okay.. lol it was funny... but then again there won't be more than 4 or 5 more boxes with my other stuff... cuz i will probably end up throwing a lot of stuff out cuz they are worthless little trinkets i've gathered over the years... useless silly things. but i also got half my movies boxed up. gotta see if i have anymore just layin around the house.
so the first person just left... it's now 4:40 pm... i wish it was me leaving...however i aint that lucky...but it's all good. i got to work a little late...so it's okay. the reason i was late is silly though...at the time i was scared a bit though...or maybe shaken up is the better term. i was already runnin late and was gonna be about 5 min late... but then...well let me start from leaving my house.
so i left my house and was driving down to the main street, redwood road. i tried my little time saver move to turn right onto redwood and then flip a u-turn and head the other way...rather than waiting for a left turn light on my road. well i underestimated how fast a car coming my way on redwood was going, and decided to go for a quick turn. however, she was comin up way fast and i tried to speed up. the lady didn't even try to slow down until she was like 7 feet from hittin me. then she gets majorly pissed off at me! i know i made a stupid turn...i was at fault there honestly. but she didn't try to slow down til she almost hit me. then i take the first turn i can like up 50 feet into a parking lot. i decide to just take the back way back around and get back to where i can get to 47th south, which is the street i take to work. however, the lady comes up in her car next to me and speeds up to catch me and make me stop so she can yell at me from her car! totally scared the shit outta me. i thought for sure she was gonna do somethin to me. i mean i didn't even hit her or her hit me... there was no accident! and i kept sayin i'm so sorry! my bad! i'm sorry... and i was totally being sincere about it...honestly. finally the stupid b***** shut up! for a sec....she just sat glarin at me. i took that as my cue and left. she was still parked where i left her when i turned outta view. i really hope nothing bad will happen...i don't think there really is anything she can do. i mean...yeah i pulled in front of her and shouldn't have. but i didn't break any laws, i didn't cause an accident.. there's nothing she can get me on. and i said i'm sorry like at least 7 or 8 times. i was barely able to say that.... but yah... oh well, no use gettin worked up over it all.
anyhooo....still here and ppl are leaving...ugh...dang me having code six... oh well...well not much else to say. except i am so countin down the days! two weeks from tomorrow...lol
it's quiet here... i'm just listenin to the radio and such not too loud cuz there are a few ppl around...but i'm not worrying so much what i'm listening to... it's cool...cuz i think if i had to worry...i'd be so frickin bored!!! lol...97.1 zht is the best :) though i do love my U92...though i wouldn't risk listenin to that at work :) lol even with only a few ppl around lol...
well i'm just babbling now...so laters!!! :D
average jane out!
oh yeah! i love jay bunches!! lol a bushel and a peck!! :D he he he he he... (wow i am really tired ) lol
So today is inventory day at my work. This means we close up our store to the public and we break up into teams of three or four ppl and count all the product in our store. however, we have way too much stuff to count it all in one day. so we have one or two days in october and one or two days in december. (or is it january....? ) anyhoo. so the key is the faster we get the count done the first day, then we may not have to come back on the second day... usually being on a friday/saturday combo... so here i sit having done both my count and audited another group's count...well partial audit cuz we couldn't find half the shit out there. that was the problem with our counting. we were assigned to a code that really only two guys know much about it... and they were dealing with the other 2/3 of the code... talk about screwed up.... but we eventually figured out the most of it. i was assigned to be just a writer... which was okay by me... lol i had a lot of codes to sort through to find the right one though...lol :) loads of fun.
but now i sit here with nothing to do. i am simply waiting for them to come and audit my codes and such. but they have to go through a few other ppl. i can't wait til i get to go. cuz then i get to go to jay's and watch a movie and eat some food...lol food sounds good. i'm also oober thristy lol been drinkin water and soda lots...
so life.... how has it been you may ask. busy! that pretty much sums it up... stressed and hectic also work well! But plans are coming along splendidly for the wedding. we have a place to have the ceremony and reception. we have jay's bishop that is goin to marry us. we will have a marriage license on monday :) hopefully... lol i have a dress, jay has a tux rented. my bridesmaids dresses are almost done, flowers ordered...cake ordered. announcements sent out yesterday/today... yah... most everything done.
as to life otherwise. lol there really hasn't been much other than wedding stuff for the past little while...lol except school and me packin up my room to move. school has been going decently. i've found that i can just go to class and read a book like whatever...( ie: Jane Eyre is what i've been reading lately...) just to get the attendance points and learn all i need to at home. i'm really learning nothing new in class. it's like a review of all i learned in jr. high.... and that's just sad that i already know all this stuff...i'm so bored. but then i go online and do the homework... i so could have taken this class online. which is what i'm considering doing for spanish 1020 ( i'm taking 1010). but yah...
then my other class is POLS 1100... which is american gov't and politics 101... it's really quite interesting i have to admit. we get into some really cool discussions and sometimes i feel like i know enough to actually put my opinion out there. the funny thing is that because of this class i find myself paying more attention to certain issues. like the whole bank bailout bill thingy... i find myself watchin the articles online to see what they are saying. i'm finding myself watching the stocks to see if they are going up or down in points, even though i don't get what the points really mean, besides that up is good and bad is down... lol but i really feel like i'm actually becoming more aware of things that i have wanted to know more about. that's why i'm glad that i was able to take this class. it does help also that jay knows somethings like this too...like some things with stocks and what is kind of going on in the political world....at least more than i do. it's kind of good. cuz that mixed with what i'm learning on my own helps me in my class. it's really quite neat! lol if i haven't mentioned that yet.
but yah...oh ! so i started packin up my room...it was quite funny actually. i knew right off that the most of my packing would be of my books and movies. the funny part is that i didn't realize that it would take all the boxes i had already collected, plus a few i borrowed from family..., to box just my books up! lol it was funny. then jay came over like last night. he saw the boxes and he said, " is that just your books?" lol i said yup! he kind of smiled and said... okay.. lol it was funny... but then again there won't be more than 4 or 5 more boxes with my other stuff... cuz i will probably end up throwing a lot of stuff out cuz they are worthless little trinkets i've gathered over the years... useless silly things. but i also got half my movies boxed up. gotta see if i have anymore just layin around the house.
so the first person just left... it's now 4:40 pm... i wish it was me leaving...however i aint that lucky...but it's all good. i got to work a little late...so it's okay. the reason i was late is silly though...at the time i was scared a bit though...or maybe shaken up is the better term. i was already runnin late and was gonna be about 5 min late... but then...well let me start from leaving my house.
so i left my house and was driving down to the main street, redwood road. i tried my little time saver move to turn right onto redwood and then flip a u-turn and head the other way...rather than waiting for a left turn light on my road. well i underestimated how fast a car coming my way on redwood was going, and decided to go for a quick turn. however, she was comin up way fast and i tried to speed up. the lady didn't even try to slow down until she was like 7 feet from hittin me. then she gets majorly pissed off at me! i know i made a stupid turn...i was at fault there honestly. but she didn't try to slow down til she almost hit me. then i take the first turn i can like up 50 feet into a parking lot. i decide to just take the back way back around and get back to where i can get to 47th south, which is the street i take to work. however, the lady comes up in her car next to me and speeds up to catch me and make me stop so she can yell at me from her car! totally scared the shit outta me. i thought for sure she was gonna do somethin to me. i mean i didn't even hit her or her hit me... there was no accident! and i kept sayin i'm so sorry! my bad! i'm sorry... and i was totally being sincere about it...honestly. finally the stupid b***** shut up! for a sec....she just sat glarin at me. i took that as my cue and left. she was still parked where i left her when i turned outta view. i really hope nothing bad will happen...i don't think there really is anything she can do. i mean...yeah i pulled in front of her and shouldn't have. but i didn't break any laws, i didn't cause an accident.. there's nothing she can get me on. and i said i'm sorry like at least 7 or 8 times. i was barely able to say that.... but yah... oh well, no use gettin worked up over it all.
anyhooo....still here and ppl are leaving...ugh...dang me having code six... oh well...well not much else to say. except i am so countin down the days! two weeks from tomorrow...lol
it's quiet here... i'm just listenin to the radio and such not too loud cuz there are a few ppl around...but i'm not worrying so much what i'm listening to... it's cool...cuz i think if i had to worry...i'd be so frickin bored!!! lol...97.1 zht is the best :) though i do love my U92...though i wouldn't risk listenin to that at work :) lol even with only a few ppl around lol...
well i'm just babbling now...so laters!!! :D
average jane out!
oh yeah! i love jay bunches!! lol a bushel and a peck!! :D he he he he he... (wow i am really tired ) lol
Thursday, August 21, 2008
start of school again! :D lol
okay, so i shouldn't be on here bloggin during work time :D but at the moment i think i'm safe from gettin in trouble lol...plus i'm really bored!
well, i guess it's time for another update on just another day in life of averagejane...lol
so school has begun yet again. and even though i totally was registering last min, i still was able to get into some of the classes i needed to take lol. i am taking spanish 1010 on mondays and wednesdays, Political science 1100 ( American Govt.) on tuesdays... and lastly i have a yoga class on thursdays! lol this is gonna be fun! i really am genuinely excited for my classses...as silly as that may seem... :D it's gonna be fun to work around with my wedding though...lol
as to wedding details too...lol me and jay have finally, of sorts, set a concrete date. we are planning for October 18th! lol i hope that that will stay as our date. hopefully it will also work out for jay's brother to come up that day. I am actually really excited as i have found a first and second choice for where we can have the wedding...lol i hope my first choice works out as i really like the place just from the pictures. but me and jay hopefully will be able to go check it out this saturday...
hmm...and other news with me. well, i have been sick with a funky cold this past week here. today is the first day i've been really startin to feel better! lol it's cuz i finally had my mom help me find some stronger drugs lol :D turns out that the cold meds we have been buying are missing an ingredient they used to have :) lol psuephedrine i believe it's called. seems that ppl are using it to make meth! lol who'd a thunk? lol so you can still get it as an "over-the-counter" drug...but you jsut have to go to the pharmacist and show ID and sign for it lol :D so now i'm doin better.
lol but yea.. also , i'll be bloggin for the first time in a bit on jay's blog! lol he added me as an author :D so feel free to check it out :D
laters...
averagejane signing off :D
well, i guess it's time for another update on just another day in life of averagejane...lol
so school has begun yet again. and even though i totally was registering last min, i still was able to get into some of the classes i needed to take lol. i am taking spanish 1010 on mondays and wednesdays, Political science 1100 ( American Govt.) on tuesdays... and lastly i have a yoga class on thursdays! lol this is gonna be fun! i really am genuinely excited for my classses...as silly as that may seem... :D it's gonna be fun to work around with my wedding though...lol
as to wedding details too...lol me and jay have finally, of sorts, set a concrete date. we are planning for October 18th! lol i hope that that will stay as our date. hopefully it will also work out for jay's brother to come up that day. I am actually really excited as i have found a first and second choice for where we can have the wedding...lol i hope my first choice works out as i really like the place just from the pictures. but me and jay hopefully will be able to go check it out this saturday...
hmm...and other news with me. well, i have been sick with a funky cold this past week here. today is the first day i've been really startin to feel better! lol it's cuz i finally had my mom help me find some stronger drugs lol :D turns out that the cold meds we have been buying are missing an ingredient they used to have :) lol psuephedrine i believe it's called. seems that ppl are using it to make meth! lol who'd a thunk? lol so you can still get it as an "over-the-counter" drug...but you jsut have to go to the pharmacist and show ID and sign for it lol :D so now i'm doin better.
lol but yea.. also , i'll be bloggin for the first time in a bit on jay's blog! lol he added me as an author :D so feel free to check it out :D
laters...
averagejane signing off :D
Thursday, August 14, 2008
when harry met sally...or somethin like that :)
so i guess some of you have been waiting for details on the engagement lol :D so here goes...
well, about a month or so ago, jay told me about this cool meteor shower that i totally had to see :) and of course i said, if i can convince my parents to let me out til 3 or 4 in the morning watching it, and get work off the next day...i totally want to come :) why wouldn't i? lol more time to spend with jay. anyhoo...so that day finally came...august 11th at about midnight..
i was so stoked to go watch the meteor shower. jay came to my house around 11:20 pm to pick me up...originally it was gonna be midnight...then he just had to get outta his house earlier so he came over :D i was just watchin titanic cuz i've never seen it. so then i went out to meet him and we headed up. i was smart enough to at least bring a jacket and a blanket lol. but not smart enough to wear real shoes! :O i wore flip flops...lol anyhoo.
so we drove up to a little town just west of park city. it was called pinebrook i believe. for those of you familiar with jeremy ranch, it was that exit. there is this cute little park in the town that we went to. we first off went and laid on the grass. it was wet cuz the lawn was in the process of being watered by sprinklers....thank goodness we had a blanket that was okay to lay on the wet grass and wouldn't soak through lol. but it was cold! lol i know it probably really wasn't too cold temperature wise...but when you've been used to like 100 degree weather...lol
but after laying there for around 20 min, jay says to me that there's this park bench on the other side of the park, and that we should go watch the meteors from there. so we head in the general direction of it...though it was hard to see cuz it was way dark. lol thank goodness i noticed there were three big sprinklers in our path so we could divert and not get wet and more cold than it already was :D so we eventually got to the little path that led to the bench. as we got closer i noticed that it had a little wood covering over it. it was cute and i remember thinking..."that will get in the way of our view of the stars, but okay...lol" and as we got even closer, i noticed the little candles lining the pathway right directly to the bench and remarked, "oh what cute little candles!" lol i was oblivious (i found out later that jay had to keep so hard from laughing at my total cluelessness...lol and he was worried i would figure it out too soon...lol) but then jay stopped and turned and pulled me to him. he gave his little speech about how he loved me and other cute little things for my ears only...lol (sorry ppl) but then he reached into his jacket pocket, and went down on one knee. that's the moment when my head screamed "oh my god...ohmygod~!" lol over and over...and he asked me to marry him. and i of course said yes, with tears beginning to stream down my face ...*tears up remembering* it was so cute and i had planned to jokingly tell him no when he proposed, but there really was no way i could say no....not even joking...
so i am now officially the almost happiest and luckiest girl in the world! lol i say almost, cuz i will be the luckiest girl in the world when i am Mrs. Amy Shepherd...lol anyhooo...in anticipation of the question most everyone will ask, we are tentatively thinking mid-october for the wedding....lol
and one last other piece of news i just received tonight lol i have another engaged friend! my friend courtney richins is engaged! lol i just hope she knows i'm so happy for her :D
well i need sleep. my brother comes home tomorrow. loads to do :D
well, about a month or so ago, jay told me about this cool meteor shower that i totally had to see :) and of course i said, if i can convince my parents to let me out til 3 or 4 in the morning watching it, and get work off the next day...i totally want to come :) why wouldn't i? lol more time to spend with jay. anyhoo...so that day finally came...august 11th at about midnight..
i was so stoked to go watch the meteor shower. jay came to my house around 11:20 pm to pick me up...originally it was gonna be midnight...then he just had to get outta his house earlier so he came over :D i was just watchin titanic cuz i've never seen it. so then i went out to meet him and we headed up. i was smart enough to at least bring a jacket and a blanket lol. but not smart enough to wear real shoes! :O i wore flip flops...lol anyhoo.
so we drove up to a little town just west of park city. it was called pinebrook i believe. for those of you familiar with jeremy ranch, it was that exit. there is this cute little park in the town that we went to. we first off went and laid on the grass. it was wet cuz the lawn was in the process of being watered by sprinklers....thank goodness we had a blanket that was okay to lay on the wet grass and wouldn't soak through lol. but it was cold! lol i know it probably really wasn't too cold temperature wise...but when you've been used to like 100 degree weather...lol
but after laying there for around 20 min, jay says to me that there's this park bench on the other side of the park, and that we should go watch the meteors from there. so we head in the general direction of it...though it was hard to see cuz it was way dark. lol thank goodness i noticed there were three big sprinklers in our path so we could divert and not get wet and more cold than it already was :D so we eventually got to the little path that led to the bench. as we got closer i noticed that it had a little wood covering over it. it was cute and i remember thinking..."that will get in the way of our view of the stars, but okay...lol" and as we got even closer, i noticed the little candles lining the pathway right directly to the bench and remarked, "oh what cute little candles!" lol i was oblivious (i found out later that jay had to keep so hard from laughing at my total cluelessness...lol and he was worried i would figure it out too soon...lol) but then jay stopped and turned and pulled me to him. he gave his little speech about how he loved me and other cute little things for my ears only...lol (sorry ppl) but then he reached into his jacket pocket, and went down on one knee. that's the moment when my head screamed "oh my god...ohmygod~!" lol over and over...and he asked me to marry him. and i of course said yes, with tears beginning to stream down my face ...*tears up remembering* it was so cute and i had planned to jokingly tell him no when he proposed, but there really was no way i could say no....not even joking...
so i am now officially the almost happiest and luckiest girl in the world! lol i say almost, cuz i will be the luckiest girl in the world when i am Mrs. Amy Shepherd...lol anyhooo...in anticipation of the question most everyone will ask, we are tentatively thinking mid-october for the wedding....lol
oh and i found this cute quote online from the movie When Harry Met Sally. lol it goes "When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. " thats how i feel!! :D
and one last other piece of news i just received tonight lol i have another engaged friend! my friend courtney richins is engaged! lol i just hope she knows i'm so happy for her :D
well i need sleep. my brother comes home tomorrow. loads to do :D
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
OMG!!!
lol okay...i know it's like 3 in the morning...but this totally warrants a blog post...lol especially since i haven't blogged in a little while! and the title of this blog pretty much sums up how i'm feelin at the moment ! lol lol but....
I'M ENGAGED!!!! lol it's so awesome, exciting, scary...amzing....lol just a whole jumble of things. it feels weird to be writing this...to be thinking of jay shepherd, the love of my life, as my fiancè....lol like i'm so stoked, but my head is still havin troubles wrappin around the idea! lol i think i'm still in shock mode, as this is not what i expected! lol not this soon...lol can't wait til tomorrow...lol and i do mean tomorrow...lol i get to show my ring off at work! lol it's so cute! lol just simple and silver, with a cute little delicate diamond...lol i love it! lol
well, i'm gonna close. i'll write more details when i wake up later today! :D lol
one last note...actually. lol it's funny cuz i can't seem to keep a smile off my face. lol i'm jsut so giddy and full of energy..which is why i'm still up! lol i love jay....
laters
averagejane signing off! :D life is fantabulous...i'm engaged and have a fiancè! lol gotta keep sayin that to get used to it :D lol
I'M ENGAGED!!!! lol it's so awesome, exciting, scary...amzing....lol just a whole jumble of things. it feels weird to be writing this...to be thinking of jay shepherd, the love of my life, as my fiancè....lol like i'm so stoked, but my head is still havin troubles wrappin around the idea! lol i think i'm still in shock mode, as this is not what i expected! lol not this soon...lol can't wait til tomorrow...lol and i do mean tomorrow...lol i get to show my ring off at work! lol it's so cute! lol just simple and silver, with a cute little delicate diamond...lol i love it! lol
well, i'm gonna close. i'll write more details when i wake up later today! :D lol
one last note...actually. lol it's funny cuz i can't seem to keep a smile off my face. lol i'm jsut so giddy and full of energy..which is why i'm still up! lol i love jay....
laters
averagejane signing off! :D life is fantabulous...i'm engaged and have a fiancè! lol gotta keep sayin that to get used to it :D lol
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
hickeys...he he
Lol so here i am at work. i know i probably should not be goofin off on the net...but i just thought i'd blog a sec. lol
so let's just say that i have a few lovely little hickeys..lol not the first time. but i got one of the funniest responses today, from a customer. lol just to explain a little, i have a few along the line of my neck/collarbone...hehe... and i actually am wearing a higher collared shirt so they don't show as much. but the the collar keeps slippin a bit low.anyhoo, so this guy says to me, " did you get attacked by a vacuum?" lol i just kinda laughed and said " somethin like that." lol then he said, "nasty little suckers." lol it really made me laugh. he didn't say anything else, and then went on his way. so i assume he knew that they were hickeys...lol but yeah... that was my laugh for the day..
i think i've had some funny responses the last time i got a major hickey or two...lol i had the ladies in my office making fun of me..lol my favorite has to be Connie's reaction. She is probably late 50's to mid 60s...and she said to me, " back in my day, we would get them where you couldn't see them, where you could hide them." lol that totally made me laugh. i mean, jsut imagining her having to even need to hide a hickey! lol to be honest, i could see it...lol but it's just too dang funny...
oh yeah...then today, the ladies noticed somewhat of my current hickeys...lol made some comment about "did you notice the little trail on her neck?" lol kind of said it a bit softer than normal...lol but just almost a stage whisper...like to see if i noticed them lol it was funny.
lol oh and then i was telling my friend Callie, here at work, about the guy's reaction from this morning. and she said i should tell my boyfriend that real love doesn't need to leave a mark...lol it was cute! i might tell him that. :D then i told callie that well, i'm half to blame...hehe. anyhoo...lol
well that's all for now...good times :D i'm lucky today cuz my boyfriend is coming by to take me to lunch! yay! can't wait to see him! well, 'til later!
averagejane signing off
so let's just say that i have a few lovely little hickeys..lol not the first time. but i got one of the funniest responses today, from a customer. lol just to explain a little, i have a few along the line of my neck/collarbone...hehe... and i actually am wearing a higher collared shirt so they don't show as much. but the the collar keeps slippin a bit low.anyhoo, so this guy says to me, " did you get attacked by a vacuum?" lol i just kinda laughed and said " somethin like that." lol then he said, "nasty little suckers." lol it really made me laugh. he didn't say anything else, and then went on his way. so i assume he knew that they were hickeys...lol but yeah... that was my laugh for the day..
i think i've had some funny responses the last time i got a major hickey or two...lol i had the ladies in my office making fun of me..lol my favorite has to be Connie's reaction. She is probably late 50's to mid 60s...and she said to me, " back in my day, we would get them where you couldn't see them, where you could hide them." lol that totally made me laugh. i mean, jsut imagining her having to even need to hide a hickey! lol to be honest, i could see it...lol but it's just too dang funny...
oh yeah...then today, the ladies noticed somewhat of my current hickeys...lol made some comment about "did you notice the little trail on her neck?" lol kind of said it a bit softer than normal...lol but just almost a stage whisper...like to see if i noticed them lol it was funny.
lol oh and then i was telling my friend Callie, here at work, about the guy's reaction from this morning. and she said i should tell my boyfriend that real love doesn't need to leave a mark...lol it was cute! i might tell him that. :D then i told callie that well, i'm half to blame...hehe. anyhoo...lol
well that's all for now...good times :D i'm lucky today cuz my boyfriend is coming by to take me to lunch! yay! can't wait to see him! well, 'til later!
averagejane signing off
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