he's not calling...

so i don't know. i think he's not calling. it's 8:10 pm now.... i really am worried. i think i might be really depressed cuz i think i've been stood up. my god, i'm such a sucker. i just was persuaded into thinking that this would be a good night and that things would actually go right... okay, enough complaining. he's just not calling... i guess. so i find something else to occupy my time...

averagejane signing off...silly me but still waiting. 8:12 pm now...

it's the night!! :D

so, tonight is the night of the date. right now its 7:29. and he should be calling soon... cuz here's how things went at work.

well, we were really busy and we were down 5 ppl on my level, and 2 in the warehouse. so robert was so busy that he didnt' have time to talk to me until about closing time. so he comes up to me and says,'wow this is the first time today i've had a chance to talk to you.' cuz they were busy. but then he said that he didn't have time to do what he had wanted to do, cuz he had to walk and get his car from someplace. and he had a few other things to do. he told me he wanted to take me out to dinner and a movie, but asked if i would be okay to do something around 8 pm. i told him i was okay with that. but then he asked, 'well, can i have your phone number so i can call you?' and i said, ' that's silly, why would i want to give you my number? ' totally sarcastic, but i gave him my number. then i told him that i was actually getting a cell phone next month. then he realized that this was my home phone number. and he said, ' i'm calling your home phone?' and i said, 'yah, but don't worry. i'll have the house to myself by the time you call.' so he said he'd call me.

and now it's 7:40 pm. i hope he calls. cuz i really want to go out with him. cuz as i sit here i think that maybe he changed his mind, maybe he lost my phone number. or any countless things. and so i sit here waiting.... but yeah....anyhoo...hope he calls...

averagejane signing off...still waiting (now 7:47 pm...)

i've got a date! and i can't wait..... : D

otay.... so today has to be considered one of the funnier days of my existence! :D so i was at work and me and robert did our whole smile/whatever exchange a few times during the day. there is this girl, oyuna, who works with me. she's like late 20s, early 30s and is married. she was helping me fold invoices for mailing and she asked me, 'amy, do you have a boyfriend?' and i told her i didn't. then i said, ' but i have a date on friday! ' and she said, ' oh, with who?' and i said, ' robert.' she looked at me and said, ' robert, like in the warehouse?' and i said, 'yah.' and she told me that she thought he had a girlfriend. and stuff and i told her that i was pretty sure he didn't, but i was gonna actually ask him today just to be safe. and i asked her how she was sure he had a girlfriend. she told me that some girl comes and picks him up after work each day. and i told her that he told me it was his sister emily. and when i saw her pick him up, they acted like brother and sister and not at all like boyfriend/ girlfriend. then, she says,'well, i'm gonna go check on something.' so she leaves. and i don't hear from her for ten minutes.

so i went on my break and i was in the bathroom, when oyuna comes in and says, 'amy?' and i say yah... and so she comes in and says,' maybe i was mistaken, some of the guys have sisters that come and bring them lunch, so it could be his sister that comes and picks him up... sorry about that.' and i told her it wasn't a problem. but then she tells me the reason she had asked if i had a boyfriend, was that she wanted to set me up with one of the other guys that work in the warehouse, chris. he's a good guy. really nice and funny. and she wanted to set me up with him... how funny! but the story gets better.

so i told darren, a guy at work, that oyuna had wanted to set me up with chris. and he makes some comment about what the dating setup we've got here! :D and i found this immensly hilarious. but yeah. so i was gonna ask robert if he had a girlfriend, but turned out i didn't have to. he came up around 4 pm and said, ' i just had a good chat with oyuna.' i said, 'oh... yeah?' and he told me,' i don't have a girlfriend. maybe when i talked to oyuna last i did. my crazy ex that trys to call me here, i broke up with her 2 1/2 weeks ago. but i don't have a girlfriend. but if you don't want to go out with me still, i understand.' i replied,' i do still want to go out with you, i just didn't want to deal with that.' and he said he completely understood. then he went back to the warehouse. then at closing time, he came up front again and said, 'so are we still on for tomorrow?' and i told him 'yeah. so what are we doing?' and he said he hadn't decided yet, he was trying to think of something fun. then he turned to go. but then turned back and said, 'oh, one more thing, i'm a pretty open guy. if you hear something about me, you can come ask me and i'll tell you.' i said,' okay. and i was gonna come ask you about the girlfriend thing, but oyuna beat me to it.' i also told him that i really don't have a hard time coming to ppl about things. so yeah. but we're on for tomorrow night!!! i really cannot wait. so that's been my interesting day!! :D

but then on saturday, i'm gonna hang out with my friend, jesse at the gateway. we're gonna hangout and catch up on life. get to know each other a bit better seeing as we've only met in person once and mostly chatted over the net...but yeah. it'll be fun!

but i'm so excited for tomorrow!!!! i think i'll burst from happiness and excitement! :D

averagejane signing off! : P

boys still silly!! :D

okay, here i go again... here's what happened today. well, so we kind of did our typical hi and smile routine. it wasn't until around 3 or 4 pm that he really said anything important. but, so he came up to me and said, "so are you connie's granddaughter?" and i was totally shocked! connie is the lady who was previously over me in my filing position. and she's short, redhaired, really can be annoying.... but i laughed and said, "no i'm not her granddaughter!" i also said that i'm not related to anyone there at steve regan company. i told him, thank god i'm not related to connie! :D lol that would be almost as bad as my own grandma. but he seemed very relieved to hear i wasn't at all related. cuz he had heard some rumors that i was. but then he was like, okay. and then walked back to the ware house. so then, about twenty minutes later, he came back and said, "so what are you doing friday?" and i said," hmm... fridaY?" and i just thought for two seconds. and he said, "do you have plans already?" and i said, " no, i'm just trying to be sure of i dont'." and he said " okay, so we should do something friday." and i said "yeah, definitely." and he said "okay, so i'll talk to you tomorrow. i'm leaving." i said "okay. bye." and he said 'bye.' lol it took him long enough!!! :D but he asked me out. i'm good! i think this is way funny! but i am excited for friday!! i can't wait!!

but yeah...this has been interesting. to say the least. so now the real wait is over of whether or not he's gonna ask me out. so when i get pics of him, i will post them on here, once i figure that out too! cuz i think he's cute! oh and my sister and mom didnt' really like that he's 26. but you know what? i don't care. i'm an adult now and i can make my own responsible decisions. that kind of sounded whiny. what i meant to say is that i am an adult. i am capable of making responsible decisions. i know when something could be dangerous or risky. but the things in life worth going for mean taking risks. like someone once said, one can never possibly know how far one can go, until one risks going too far. so here i go. it takes a risk in trusting anyone. but i do trust robert. i don't know him altogether too well, but just the way he acts makes me think he's an okay guy. well, very much more than okay cuz he's way cute!! :D lol not biased at all! :D

but yeah enough rambling about boys! that's all for now! :D

average jane signing off! :p

boys and their silly ways... :D

so an update i believe is in order as so much has happened since i last wrote. well, not a lot, but quite some funny things.

so to begin, well, let's start with robert. well, so i mentioned last time that he asked if i had a boyfriend. well, that was thursday. then on friday. the 15th, he came up during the day and asked me how old i was. i told him,"18." then he kind of went, 'oh,' kind of like oh, that's young. but so i found it funny that now i was 18 yrs old, i was still too young in some sense for some things. lol. but, so i just was like whatever. then on monday, he really didn't say anything, and by the night when i went home, i was kind of like, whatever happens, i don't care. cuz it's not like i know the guy really well, and it's like we've barely talked as it is. but yeah... so then i went into work today. and let me preface myself by saying, robert had, i thought, one football jersey that he wears to work everyday, along with a baseball hat. but today, he wore a polo shirt that was blue and yellow striped. so i mentioned to him, 'so you wore something other than your football jersey? what, did you have to wash it?' i did this in a jokingly manner. he kind of laughed like, oh i had that coming. but he said he had several football jerseys that he wore. but he also wasn't wearing his hat. his hair was curly. it was cute. like he'd done his hair that morning, instead of just throwing on a hat over it. i must admit that i didn't recognize him at first without the hat and football jersey. it was terribly funny to me, when i realized that it was robert. he he... but so on to the other things that happened today. well, he came up to me once during the day and asked, 'so is 26 too old for you?' and i kind of was like, 'umm....no.' and he said 'it's too old for you..' i said 'no, it's not too old.' and he seemed satisfied. so then i found this altogether way too funny to keep to myself. so i went and told darren, a married guy like in his 30s or 40s that i work with. i told him all that had happened. and so he said, "so the next question is, 'so what are you doing thursday night?'" and i just laughed. so.... then robert came up later and asked me, ' if i asked you out, would you say yes, or would you say no?' and i told him i'd say yes. and he said, okay. then he went back to the ware house. then i told darren, 'the next question was, "if i asked you out, would you say yes or would you say no?"' and he just laughed. but then just before darren left he asked if robert had said anything. and i said no. so it's kind of funny... maybe tomorrow he might actually ask me out! :D that'd be funny...

but yeah. that's what's been going on in my life. nothing much else except for the fact that i've been driving my little sister crazy by watching pride and prejudice over and over, when i can. but lol it's been great.

so actually, theres a part of me still not sure about robert, like he's funny and cute, but i don't really know him yet and he doesn't really know me. but i guess if we went on a date we'd get a chance to know each other. that is if he ever does ask me on a date....hmm... well, we'll just have to see where this all leads...

average jane signing off...(robert makes me smile :D really big! )

cute new boys at work!! :D

so hey, like i mentioned in an earlier post, i got the full time job and i am loving it. it's really not interrupting my life altogether too much right now. and the bonus of it all that i found out today....the owner, steve harmsen, will pay my tuition for college!! and i get my books free cuz my mom works at the bookstore at slcc. so basically there might be a few fees, but otherwise, i am set for college. now i know there was so a reason i took this job. not only would it be good pay, but it would literally be paying for college to work there. honestly, this is the first i've heard of it and i'm amzed. but yeah... well other news.

so there's this cute guy at work named robert. he works in the warehouse dept. but so i officially met him, like in asking him his name like two days ago. but, so we have talked and joked. and done the whole little smile at each other for the past few days. but then today he was up front getting sumthin, and he was like, 'so amy, do you have a boyfriend?' and i didnt' hear him at first so i said huh? and he repeated his question and i said, 'no.' and he kind of looked glad to hear that and acted partially interested. but then he went back to the warehouse, and ended up coming back like 20 min. later. he hung around for a sec. looking like he wanted to talk to me. but i had blake on one side of me, a customer across the counter and like two other ppl by me. and so he kind of left. so i think he may have come to ask me out, then chickened out. or decided to wait til later. but then we closed, and we all headed out, all gone by half an hour later. so yeah. but he's cute, and it's funny, cuz he has some crazy ex-girlfriend that tries to call him at work sometimes. lol anyhoo...

well that's all for today.

average jane signing off...

a public notice and just life...

okay so i was just accused of not publicly admitting that i have been in the wrong. i thought i had, but it appears maybe not. so here i go. these past few months, there has been turmoil between a former friend and i. but we were both in the wrong. first off, i felt like she was choosing her boyfriend over our friendship. so i became upset and defensive. which just put a bigger strain on our friendship. which was very stupid of me. i admit that i was in the wrong right there. very much so. and at other times i did act like a brat. again i was in the wrong. i was never the one who was always the good guy. but while i reacted like that, my friend just pulled farther away. we both avoided the issue. and in the end, it has killed our relationship. so basically we'll never speak again. this final end though came about by a stupid action on my part. but ya know, things happen in life for a reason. so i guess the only thing to do is to just move on. i think my former friend is serious this time. and i kind of yelled at her in an email, so that probably didn't help. and her fiance which i didnt' care to talk to anyways, well, i told to get out of my life. so i think that is the last i will hear from them. i hope my former friend is happy now that i have publicly admitted that i was in the wrong too. oh one last thought. i forgot to add this to her email, but i will add it here. sorry, my former friend, but i'm not sure you'll even read the first email so i won't bother with a second. i will keep my piercing in to remind myself that i must depend on myself and make a statement on my own. i made the choice by myself. so that's all i need say. now moving on.

so i'm finally getting over my sickness. and i'm loving my new job. and i'm really just moving on past guys and depending on ppl. i'm slowly finding that i really only have myself to depend on. so yeah. tha's life. well, i g2g. life moves quickly.

average jane signing off.