Tuesday, December 9, 2008

reflections over the last year...pt. 2

okay so as my husband pointed out, i have not put up a part 2 yet! lol so i figure i better get on it ;)

i know it's been almost 3 weeks since my last post, but i'll try to follow up with what i was thinkin :)

i was kind of in a funk that night that i was posting so this will be a little different.. but the general idea is that the past year things have been crazy. i've done some things i'm not proud of... though they have made me stronger and into the person i am today. And, i've done some things, made some choices that have been the best times of my life. among those that i am most grateful for, is the moment i began dating jay. i'll admit that with the path i had been going down, that i didn't think i would find someone like jay, someone to love me despite all my faults and bad choices. it was funny too, cuz i realized how much i didn't know jay in high school. i found out we were so similar in what paths in life we had begun to walk down. or tumble down... as the case may be. lol but then by some chance he found me... and in turn we both began to see that there was a better path. one that was meant for us to walk together... and so we began it. on october 18th. the best day of my life, at this point. i'm sure i'll have many best days to add to that down the road. but yeah

so i know in the last post i was mostly dwelling on the bad stuff that had happened and that i had gotten into... so they weren't the worst things i could have done... but they were stuff i will avoid in the future. i won't dwell on them any more because there was this quote i found and it said, "Don't let yesterday use up too much of today." (Will Rogers) and ya know what? i realized that i do that all too often. i've been fallin into an old habit of letting small things bug me... and lingering on them. and it's been pullin me down. i need to just let go! and so here i go.... but oh... another good quote to go with that is "some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong, sometimes it's letting go" That one applies to a lot in my life.! honestly.

anyway.. this is my pt. 2 and final reflection over the past year. it's been a year of change and wonderful beginnings! i can't wait to see what this year brings :) (maybe a change in job :) i hope!)

but life is great! i love jay more than i thought possible! (i'll always be ur girlfriend, btw, jay :D )

averagejane signing off :)