memories to last

last night i went to my first real football game. yeah pathetic that it took me so long. i was wondering myself why i hadn't ever gone to one before. i had a blast. i went with my friends. and it was our school against a nearby high school. we unfortunately lost. but, we had some friends from the other school sitting on our side. then to be fair, we spent one quarter on their side, though we still cheered loudly and proudly for our team. well, at least i did, can't say much for slypig. it was kind of fun to do that and see the reaction from the other school's fans. and i got to spend time really hanging out with my best friend. then after the game, we went and saw the movie "click". the storyline was good. but, there were plenty of digusting parts that could have been left out. and the movie made me think. like really think. basically the movie is about a guy who fast forwards through his life, first intentionally, then the remote he's using takes over his life. and he loses those he loves and finds that life is something you need to enjoy every minute of it. and it made me think about all of my friends and how much they mean to me. i just want to say that i appreciate slypig. you're my bestest friend in the whole world and i hope we're friends forever. army man, you're the greatest friend overall i could ever hope for. you really listen to me and i thank you for that. and fav. freak, along with lizbiz, you're two of the bestest galfriends a girl could hope for. and dr. paleo, you're a new friend. thanx for just caring. most of my friends will never read this, but, thanx just the same. average jane signing off.

blast from the past

yeah you know sometimes when you get those flash from the past. well, i had one of those today. a friend that i met first from being on the "nerd team" with is now going to my school and the funny thing is that i used to have a crush on him. but, he was totally shorter than me it was funny. but, now he's grown taller and his voice is deeper. so now i'm beginning to wonder if i still might like him. he's a nice guy. but, yeah we'll just have to see how things go .
average jane signing off.

questions

how do you know when the right time is to tell a person you really like them? that's the question of the week. i've been puzzling over it for a while. but, if i did say something would i just be the one who ends up looking like a fool? or will it all turn out okay? i know people say that life's too short to sit around waiting for things to happen. and i believe that from experiences i have. and yeah, if my best friend has the guts to tell the girl he likes how he feels, then why shouldn't i? unfortunately, in this sense, my friend is braver than me. yeah i know to my friends i put on this façade that i'm not disturbed or really afraid of anything. i'm miss honest and upfront about everything. i'm not afraid to talk to strangers. i really put on this face in front of most of my friends. with my friend i like, sometimes he makes me feel like i don't have to put on this charade. and i don't want to have to. and yah, if you think about it , what do i have to lose? only just a great friend. so i need to make sure i really like him that way. cuz i don't want to ruin such a great friendship. but, ya know. i think it's time to see how he feels. i don't know. but, that's life. unpredictable. average jane signing off.

missing summer

yeah so you have those days when you wish something would just happen. you sit around doing nothing. and you're like come on, someone call me. please just rain or sumthing exciting. well, during this past summer my friend army man, became that something exciting. it began with a phone call inviting me to hang out with some friends to see a movie. of course i said yes. unfortunately after i had hung up, i realized that i was gonna be gone when they were going to the movie. so i called him and told him that, and he offered to go with me that night. hence the beginning of my exciting summer. from there it expanded into hanging out at a local amusement park, to lazer tag, movies and bowling. they were small activities, and we didn't travel too far. but, it made my summer. it was a perfect summer. unfortunately, it had to end all too soon. i wish sometimes i could go back and relive this summer. well, average jane signing off.

bad days

you know those days when you think everything is going wrong. and nothing can go right at all. well, today was that day. i go to get back on at my old job at the theater. but, unfortunately it was not to be. i go in and finally get ahold of who i need to talk to . but, then he tells me that i'm not rehirable. and i was really confused. i said what? and he said to me again that i'm not rehirable. there's a note on my file that says i'm not rehirable. i have no idea why i have that on my file. it pissed me off so bad. i was near tears because i was so upset. and those that know me, know that is really unlike me. my manager offered to find out what had made someone put that note. but, so i just left.i was so pissed. so i drove over to my friend's work, my friend army guy, and put in an application. so, yeah. and right now, i don't know what really to do. some of my friends would suggest praying. but ya know, i don't particularly believe in god. i don't want anything to do with religion. cuz i feel it's been shoved down my throat for the past 5-6 years. and i honestly wish i could find some reprieve from all this shit going on in my life. sometimes i feel that fate is working against me. damn i hate it so much. well, until new developments, average jane is signing off.