finding my own strength

hey call me crazy, but i've totally been feeling the need to post. i guess just a lot of things running through my mind. i really am a bit upset that that boy still hasn't called. but you know? i'm slowly coming to the realization that i need to not care so much if he calls. cuz ya know, the ball's in his court, it's his move. and i've done my part. it's okay. guys are not worth crying over, figuratively speaking, and the one that is, won't make you cry. so i'm just gonna accept that maybe this is a hint that it wouldn't have worked out and that maybe i really am just supposed to not be with a guy right now. after all, i still need to finish working out my issues with a previous boyfriend. i think i know where i stand with all of that, but i just need to have time to solidify them. cuz if everything goes okay, he'll be back in three weeks. so i need to know everything for myself by then so i can stand strong and know i've made the right choice. this wasn't entirely what i was gonna blog about, but i guess i needed to write it down so that others can see it and that i can't back out or be stupid and take the easy way out. not this time. it's my time to be the strong one. my time. and it's now, only up to me. wow i sound like some self help novel or sumthin. lol. oh well that's me. and if that boy does call, cool. if not, it's not the end of the world. i'm a strong girl. girl power! lol :D

average jane signing off.