thoughts that get me down

so today has just kind of been a whirlwind of things. steph emailed me to see if i still wanted to be her bridesmaid and such. and that i needed to be fitted if so. and to be honest. i don't really want to in some way because it means i would have to be around for the whole damn wedding. and i'm not sure that i can handle that. but then there is a part of me that wants to be there cuz she's my friend. but i'm really not sure i can be happy for her and be good for the whole deal, so i guess maybe i really just don't want to have to be there. i don't know. it's up to her whatever she decides. i'm just sick of hearing about her stupid wedding.

but i was first gonna come on and tell about how i'm beginning to have serious doubts about my second piercing. i mean, just the other day i was gonna wear one of my fav. pair of earrings. but, it didn't look good with the second piercing. and it's been more of a hassle some days to find earrings i like to wear in it. i don't know. i'm thinking of maybe taking it out. plus, this ear piercing links me to steph. but not in a good way. it just reminds me how i kind of felt like steph was just being a sheep in following us and still going through with it, even when it kind of got screwed up. maybe she really wanted it. but things that remind me of what our friendship used to be like kind of hurts. i'm not ready to be really reminded of how she chose dave over me...well, i g2g.

average jane signing off....

oh btw, i got an amzing present and letter from my great friend spencer. it really brightened my day and still does today.. thanx..

oh yeah the other day i did the bitch slap. i told them my friend's name saying she had the gall to marry my ex-boyfriend. it is so funny... cuz the dj was oober shocked and i laughed!! :D really felt good to do it...

my bed breaking story and others

well, so let's just say that first off steph has inspired me to write my bed breaking story. so it was at girls camp in the summer of 2005. we were up at this new heber valley girls camp thingy. we got to stay in these cool cabin thingys and they each had about 12 bunkbeds. one night kylee williams and a couple of other girls got the bright idea to see how many girls we could fit on one bunk bed. cuz they had a lot of space in between the top and bottome bunk. so we all went into cabin 3. and then we got the first layer of about 4 or 5 girls on. maybe 6. then we started on the second row. we had about 10-12 girls on the bed. and then my friend jackie started to get on. then all of the sudden, we heard a crack and we all went plummeting to the floor! oh my god we all jumped off as fast as we could. we hurridly put the board back up and made it look okay. then a leader taht i absolutely dislike, came in. and she was like oh what's up? cuz we all looked a bit suspicious. and so we said you won't hate us or anything, right? and she said, "as long as you haven't damaged camp property....." cuz we had to pay for any damage to camp. and we all looked at each other then one girl said,'.....we broke the bed..." my leader's mouth formed into a perfect o of surprise. funniest look ever!!!! : D but then, we got kylee's dad to fix it up so that it looked okay. the camp ppl never knew.... (other girls said taht you could hear the cracking sound a few cabins over! :D)

but that's my story for that. but last night was one all of it's own. so i went to steph's mutual last night and we got some suckers from her easter hunt thingy. and we had decided to go visit dave at work. i got the bright idea to with the suckers in our mouths. and then steph expounded on that by saying we should go with our hair in pigtails!! lol great experience and worth it. and we got it in pics. we did this photo booth thingy i'd never done before!! lol : D my fav. radio station does this thing called a bitch slap. it's where you i call the radio to slap someone over the air that has been a bitch to you. so i call in and they finally answer. so i told them i wanted to bitch slap andrea. it was funny! and i think i might have been on the air cuz they had me hold on a sec before giving the details! i hope i was on the air. cuz i love that radio situation. anyhoo, then we came home and saw the first part of a movie called ENOUGH. i love that show. and we're gonna finish it tonight at stephs house when i sleep over. :D lol. yeah life's good.

and guess what!!!!!! ??? in about 6 days i'll be in san fran!!! i can't wait. well g2g!

average jane signing off! (life is amzing!)