easter stuff and prayers

so i hope you all had a fantastic easter! mine was pretty good up until 10 pm last night... so i had an easter party at my aunts house on saturday afternoon and one of our traditions is to have leg races. there are three types we do. the typical just all out sprint. then the three legged race and the gunny sack races. well, i won the sprint race for my age group! lol i was in the 18 or older women group, who hadn't had kids yet. lol the married ladies insisted on a separate group for them that had had kids lol!! but i won! i was slow gettin off, but once i got going i was goin! LOL but now i'm paying for it today lol my legs are sore! but i couldn't be more proud! lol but the three legged race i do every year with my cousin tamra. it's tradition, cuz we are really close, great friends lol. but also, no matter that she is like 6 yrs younger than me, we've always been the same heighth. lol her family jsut has really tall kids lol. but yeah....then saturday night i went and saw the movie juno. it was really good to be honest. it was a bit different than i thought it was gonna be like, but it was really good. two lines that really stood out to me, was an exchange between the main character, Juno, and her dad. she just told her dad and stepmom that she is pregnant. and they kind of are absorbing it. then her dad says, "i thought you were the kind of girl that knew when to say when." then Juno says, " i don't know what kind of girl i am." like those lines just totally connected with me...

anyhoo, but i went to the movie with my friend tyler. we had a riot! lol he is just a goof! lol but yeah...

but then on sunday of course the easter bunny came lol. it was good...but then i just kind of caught up on homework and cleaned my room and did my laundry. oh and of course went to church... but then i was ready to turn in at about 10:00 pm...but then i get this text from my friend tyler. pretty much it said please put Julian in your prayers. and pray he will be okay. this made me worried and of course i texted tyler back to find out what was wrong. turns out our friend julian has a virus in his heart and is in intensive care at the new hospital! so of course, even though i'm not that religious, i said a prayer for him. this morning i asked my family at family prayer that whoever's turn it was to pray, if they would include julian in their prayers.

so now i ask all of you that will read this, please put and keep my friend julian in your prayers. pray that he will pull through this and the doctors can find out how to help him. pray that they can find a way to get through all of this.

thanx

averagejane signing off...

bored at work

hullo all!!! lol so i'm at work and really extremely bored. i guess i didn't realize it would be this dead on the first saturday we are open! lol but actually i wasn't scheduled to be work any saturdays, but the misty, the lady scheduled today actually called me to ask if i could cover for the last few hours cuz she had to go to the hospital with her husband. but i totally was glad to come and cover for her. it's not like i was really doing much! lol but i do have an easter party that starts at 1 pm...but the fun really isn't until after that. like around 2 or 3 pm. cuz that's after the easter egg hunt and all lol and that's when all the cousins get together and just chat. and with me being busy with work and school, i just dont' see them much...lol how ironic that the one day i have available to see them, i come to work for a few hours! lol just silly....


well, i'm gettin bored of writing...lol so, i'm gonna close this...

averagejane signing off!

oh the randomness...lol

so you know how they say the little things are what matter? well, some times it's the little things that drag you down...and some times it's the little things that make your day...little things can add up to big things that make you sad, depressed..sometimes. but then there are the little things friends do that can just make you smile. a guy at work was that for me. he just did somethin so little and funny that made me smile and will keep me goin today...

just another random thought. sometimes you feel like you've grown so apart from your friends that you don't know how to be friends anymore. like sure you talk sometimes...but it's sporadic. you called them your best friend...still call them that...but ur not so sure anymore. then those that you really do call your best friend and know that you mean it and they feel the same way. the hard part is that they can't be physically there for you sometimes cuz they have their own life going on and have to take opportunities as they come...but thank god for spring break!! lol

but that's my babble. despite how depressing parts of this sounds, i really am becoming okay with life. i mean there are days and situations that get you down. i sure as hell am not perfect! some will get me down more than others. but i am determined to not stay down for long.

and jsut so that it's in writing...i'm really gonna not go for any guy...like no serious relationship or any possibility. i will continue to date and meet new ppl...i found out that it just doesn't work trying to stay completely away from guys..lol but no guy gets past the first date. i can be jsut friends with guys but nothing romantic-wise past the first date ...lol this may seem silly but it's for my own good. lol

average jane signing off

the great excitement

so here i am ready to tell you all what had me so excited!!! :D lol

I GOT A CAR!!! lol it's a big deal cuz i've been borrowing my parents car and having them drive me to work and such...and it's my first car!!! :D lol i'm really stoked if you can't tell....


lol but i've got lots of texts to reply to now so i'll post later!!!

averagejane signing off!! :D

hullo again...

hullo all!! so i figured that along with my renewed goal to just be upbeat all day....every day... that i would do a morning blog post. seeing as i come to work and sit with a computer in front of me and i'm not doing too much... i can do that!! :D lol but, as i get busier at work, i might have to change to bloggin at night...


lol so life is going good. the thing i mentioned yesterday is going as planned so it should all be finished by this saturday...but the majority of it settled by thursday! so you special friends of mine will get texts and emails thursday night i believe!!! ;D lol

but so i probably should get to work...lol what an idea! (i know...) but i've got to finish updatin our MSDS files!! lol

averagejane signing off!! love ya all.

fantastical days-it's all in the attitude!!! :D

okay jsut a note to those concerned....i'm okay! lol i was overreacting to something that i've got in control now! lol silly me

but life is just fantastic. one thing i've been waiting for a while to come, finally might be. i say might cuz things haven't been finalized quite yet. so i just dont want to say much in case i jinx it. that means no tellin what it is heath!! :D lol luv ya sis. but i'm really stoked. if all goes well you will either receive a text or an email by thursday or friday lettin you all know what this fantastic thing is...lol you may think i'm silly, but heck i am! lol and proud of it.

hmm...so life is just good. i got so much done at work today and i'm totally proud of myself. i was determined today would be a good one and it was. lol i made great effort to sound especially cheerful when i answered the phone...lol it was coolio! and now i'm just sittin at work, wishing i could take my shoes off cuz my feet are hot...lol i don't like shoes much btw. but since i have to wear them, i wear flip flops when possible and i make sure i have cute keds to wear when flip flops just aren't possible lol.... but yeah, i think i'll switch to flip flops when i get home.. or just no shoes at all! cuz it's a heat wave here at work and my hometown...lol it's 50 degrees farenheit i think! :D lol

oh and this morning there was the freakin' coolest fog over everything. i love fog and i am extremely fascinated by it. actually the other night...last friday the 22nd, there was this really cool fog as i was drivin home for the night around 1 am...actually it would have been the 23rd by then...lol but it was so cool. the fog was so dense!!! my goal someday is to find a place where the fog is so dense you can barely see your hand a few inches in front of you. then i will play tag!!! lol that would be so much fun!!! lol

another thing i have a goal to do someday, is to find tall corn or wheat field, tall enough you can't see eachother at all. like at least six feet tall corn stalks or wheat stalks, and then play tag there too. or hide 'n go seek. that would be extremely fun!!! lol yeah i know these goals are childish but they are just so cool!! lol

but yeah...tha's me for today! in a fantastic mood!! hope you all have a fantabulous evening!!!

averagejane signing off!! :D

i know better....

so why can't i say no? i thought i learned that from my last relationship...that i needed to be stronger and say no...well, this is a not so drastic situation where i really need to say no, but am finding myself not saying it. i like kissing him, that is the biggest problem. i know that i'll only break his heart again, yet here i go. i really need to stop this before it goes any farther...like just that he gets his hopes up and i just crush him. i need to just stop myself from being selfish and going for it cuz i like it rather than i really like him... i like talking to him as a friend...i'll talk to him tonight after we go to the movie...or before...i dunno...but i've got to talk to him tonight.... tell him that i can't break his heart again...cuz i know i will. i like flirting with him and the feel of his arms around me but it's not his arms that i like, it's just the feeling of someone's arms. or maybe it's his arms...ugh. to be honest i think it's just the feeling of someone's arms securely around me...

did i mention he quit drinking....he hasn't touched a drop in a month...that is totally amzing of him to be honest....i'm so proud of him. but yeah....

anyhoo...i'll talk to him tonight...

oh and i hate that i don't talk to r. anymore... i really should talk to him. i will on monday...

averagejane signing off...