MY AWSOME PIC and my new quiz!

so hey i just felt like putting a post on here about my new pic and my new quiz.... i found this pic on someone's flixter profile and found it hilarious and had to have it for myself!!!! cuz it is so true! (at least what it says... not that everyone goes around poking ppl in the eye! lol)

and my new quiz is about me!!! (no duh) so take it and see how well you really know me! some of it is stuff straight off my blog! so have fun with it! i have to admit i'm curious to see how well my friends know me!! :D
anyhoo, that's all for now. love you all !!!

average jane signing off (so what if i was bored? *eyeroll* )

my freedom from boys and life after high school!

well, so here's my newest update on guys. i'm just giving up in general, cuz they cause too much drama in general. like being upset when i find out they think of me as just a friend.... kind of story of my life. but i'm used to it. so i'm moving on. totally nothing beyond friends with a guy. i'll flirt cuz that is so totally me. and of course tease, but nothing more. no committment, nada. it'll just make life easier... in the long run. maybe 5 years down the road i'll try again. but who cares. i'm only 18 and i've got so much i want to do!!! :D i don't need a guy to bog me down. i've got plenty of guy friends... namely nathan and spencer, they are awsome... and darion sometimes.

but it was the oddest thing, cuz i was reading my journal from like february. and i had written that no matter what happened, i'd still be friends with dave.. and look where i am now. i barely speak to him or see him as it is. and i guess i'm mostly to blame..... but i wrote that i'd die if i lost him as a friend, or never talked to him again. and now i don't talk to him and i'm survivng. guess he didn't have as much of an impact as i thought, or maybe i really am moving on. i still have feelings for him like as friends, but i guess i don't want to do anything about it. i'm jsut tired of caring. so it doesnt matter anymore. the friends i have are fine and i'm okay.

and it's totally hitting me that this is the end of high school coming too soon. that soon i won't see or talk to most of my friends again for years, because they'll be off at college having a life. but i'm still here in taylorsville, building my dreams and one day i'll get out there in the real world. having started with seeing san francisco, i can't wait to get out there and see the rest of the world. i can only imagine how amzing it will be. and i will get there, by the age of 30 is my goal. and that gives me a lot of space to find a way. i will do it.....i have to.. for my sanity. i can't wait..

anyhoo, this has been a lot of what i'm feeling lately. and it's great to get it all down..way great.
but this i draw to a close.

average jane signing off. ( for now, i'm jsut content to be. btw, boys are still hot, just stupid lol)

confusing boys and silly work

yeah so i got a call from my temp job last year and the year previously. they called to ask if i could come work for them cuz they were shorthanded this season. and well, i already had a job, but they asked if i could work saturdays, cuz i don't work saturdays at my other job. so i said sure, it would give me a break from just filing. cuz the job they wanted me to do was work at this place called lambert floral. it's a garden shop. and i was in charge of organizing and keeping the tables full of tomato plants. there were other plants that i eventually became in charge of.. like peppers and cukes, and melons, and herbs. so i became quite good at it. but anyhoo. so i went back and worked my first saturday today. i worked from 10am to about 7pm. it was so tiring. i had forgotten how much i ached after a day of work there. but at the same time, it was good to work with my hands and not really worry about getting dirty, cuz i knew i'd be filthy by the time i went home. i was quite a sight to say the least.... we'll leave it at that. but i don't know why i mentioned that anymore...

but so, other news..... well really not much new. so i had some really interesting conversations last night with a few friends... let's just say one could not shut up about the new love of their life....lol it was actually quite entertaining. and then the other, well, we had a pretty random conversation. but it was good, cuz we decided that we weren't gonna lose contact after graduation. cuz that would be the worst.... i'm using a lot of dots and i dont' know why..... but moving on..

so, life sucks in the romantic department....i've decided that over the past month.... like my sophomore friend is having more "romance" than i do. it's kind of depressing. but i still love her. :D lol like i have one guy friend that i like, but not really sure if i can trust him. cuz i thought he really liked me a little while ago, but then ended up being kind of a jerk. it sucked. but then things he's done lately makes me wonder if he does like me for real in "that way" as in more than a friend... like well, i was walking home from school with him just a few days ago. and then i got mad at him sorta and said whatever liar face. and he said " i love you amy." and it just kind of caught me off guard...... but well, i guess i don't know how to read into this. so i'm confused. and then he said it again like two days later when we were walking home. and so i really kind of like him.... and i don't know what to do. so i kinda am just gonna go with the flow. but yeah.

so that's my update. later

average jane signing off. (i'm so confused)

hullloo!! it's great to be back!!!

hey you all!!! yeah i'm back after a frickin long vacation!!!! :D san fran was amzing. im so glad that i got to go there twice!! and yeah i did go through with piercing my ears again. all three of us did. and i have to say, my second piercing looks good. and i really thought my parents would flip, but they didn't. it was more of a "i'm disappointed in you" look that i got. and we didn't talk about it. my sis said that my mom looked about to cry. and my lil' sis did cry when i told her. wierd. anyhoo, san fran was amzing. i really could live there for a while, though i was glad to get back to my nice bed. :D lol and other news, well my second trip to san fran was for choir. and guess how we did. well, all of our three choirs won first in our categories!!! we got superior ratings!! lol. the other choirs must have really sucked for us to win first place, cuz when we listend to the tapes of our selves, we sounded terrible. lol really funny to listen to and laugh at ourselves! but also there was a three way tie for the overall best high school choir, all choirs from the same school!!!! and that was......taylorsville high school!!! yeah. shows that graces is just as good as stupid madrigals!!!! hooray!!! oober funn.... but on a somber note, my friend found out during the awards ceremony that her grandpa died. he had died that morning. i felt so sad. and she hasn't been to school these past two days so i hope she's doing okay. and her mom.

anyhoo. as of other news, well, i just have to say taht my family finally came into the 21st century and got comcast cable high speed internet@!!!!!!! hooray!! yeah they got it while i was gone in san fran. so freakin awsome!!! ;D but yeah so it makes things faster. but it means that i don't have my at&t email address anymore. i'm working on getting possibly a comcast email. but for now i'm using my yahoo address, since i already have it. but i might get a comcast email. we'll see. but i just have to say i missed you all while i was gone, especially spencer! thanx again for all those emails, i really felt loved to see them in my inbox! :D anyhoo, that's all for now!!! let you all know more as things happen!!

average jane signing off!! (today is a good day, so far!)

san fran in 2 days

so hey i thought i'd just come and post an update. cuz i won't be here for a lot of time in the next few weeks. but so i get to leave in 2 days and 11 hours!!! oober excited.
and when i come back more likely than not i will be grounded by saturday or sunday. cuz of my ear piercings. so i've decided taht i'm gonna not tell my parents about my piercings until after friday so i can go out with friends. anyhoo, that's it for now.

average jane signing off! (can't wait! )

my bed breaking story and others

well, so let's just say that first off steph has inspired me to write my bed breaking story. so it was at girls camp in the summer of 2005. we were up at this new heber valley girls camp thingy. we got to stay in these cool cabin thingys and they each had about 12 bunkbeds. one night kylee williams and a couple of other girls got the bright idea to see how many girls we could fit on one bunk bed. cuz they had a lot of space in between the top and bottome bunk. so we all went into cabin 3. and then we got the first layer of about 4 or 5 girls on. maybe 6. then we started on the second row. we had about 10-12 girls on the bed. and then my friend jackie started to get on. then all of the sudden, we heard a crack and we all went plummeting to the floor! oh my god we all jumped off as fast as we could. we hurridly put the board back up and made it look okay. then a leader taht i absolutely dislike, came in. and she was like oh what's up? cuz we all looked a bit suspicious. and so we said you won't hate us or anything, right? and she said, "as long as you haven't damaged camp property....." cuz we had to pay for any damage to camp. and we all looked at each other then one girl said,'.....we broke the bed..." my leader's mouth formed into a perfect o of surprise. funniest look ever!!!! : D but then, we got kylee's dad to fix it up so that it looked okay. the camp ppl never knew.... (other girls said taht you could hear the cracking sound a few cabins over! :D)

but that's my story for that. but last night was one all of it's own. so i went to steph's mutual last night and we got some suckers from her easter hunt thingy. and we had decided to go visit dave at work. i got the bright idea to with the suckers in our mouths. and then steph expounded on that by saying we should go with our hair in pigtails!! lol great experience and worth it. and we got it in pics. we did this photo booth thingy i'd never done before!! lol : D my fav. radio station does this thing called a bitch slap. it's where you i call the radio to slap someone over the air that has been a bitch to you. so i call in and they finally answer. so i told them i wanted to bitch slap andrea. it was funny! and i think i might have been on the air cuz they had me hold on a sec before giving the details! i hope i was on the air. cuz i love that radio situation. anyhoo, then we came home and saw the first part of a movie called ENOUGH. i love that show. and we're gonna finish it tonight at stephs house when i sleep over. :D lol. yeah life's good.

and guess what!!!!!! ??? in about 6 days i'll be in san fran!!! i can't wait. well g2g!

average jane signing off! (life is amzing!)

steps to strength :a good day! :D

has anyone ever become so addicted to blogging that it hurt them? that would be funny to hear of. cuz i have to admit that at times i am way addicted to blogging. cuz sometimes it just helps to get everything out online, and it's just different from writing in my journal. but somehow better. because i do really tell my feelings sometmes, completely not caring what ppl think, cuz it's my blog. but anyhoo, i'm babbling! :D

so my path to finding my inner strength.....well, i've first begun it with tryin to get better in shape. i'm doing a few pushups, sit ups and leg lifts a day. i do some in the morning and some at night. so far so good. it's actually quite rejuvenating! amzing. but then i'm also redecorating my room of sorts... like my quotes are being re arranged and i'm puttin new ones up. like the quote of today is...."some ppl think it's holding on that makes one strong-sometimes it's letting go." and i realize that a lot of my drama and heartache and such are from not letting go of things. i tell myself that i've let go, buti havent'. and so i found this quote particularly amzing. and so i put it all pretty up on my closet door. i had fun doing it! :D let's just say i had a good amount of time on my hands! :D but these are only the beginning steps. one i would like to do is to eat healthier and such, but that will prove to be a bit more trying as i really love my disgusting junk food! : ( but i'll work on that one.
my next step is to catch up on my homework....that's proving difficult already. no duh. but life isn't supposed to be easy.

oh yah know, when i really put my mind to it, it wasn't all that hard to stay happy and positive even when i really wanted to slug my choir teacher! i just was goofy and din't have to like everything she said. but it was fun. now i need to be positive tomorrow! i can do it. :D

oh and the most random thing? so i go to seminary, but dont really like it, but somehow i manage to be the top person in my class on the scripture mastery challenge. i totally smoked my teacher coleman. but yeah so random. but i have to admit i love scripture chases! cuz i totally dominate. so i get to compete tomorrow. nathan are you not just so proud that i'm actually participating in class? *eye roll* lol but yeah i'm crazy.

so this has been a really good day. oh except that my mom wants me to go to some lame baby shower for a cousin i barely talk to. ugh. maybe i can drag a friend with. my mom is pretty set on not letting me, but i kind of told her i would only go if i could bring a friend to suffer with me. LOL but yeah otherwise, life is good. i have the house to myself as i type this, but who knows when they'll be home. ugh. but life is awsome!

average jane signing off!! ( my path is my own and i will prove stronger than any foe i may come across !)