Monday, August 21, 2006

clouds with silver linings

you know, i've heard the phrase "every cloud has a silver lining" too many times to count. and i guess that this phrase is the only way to describe my feelings right now. army guy emails me every so often and every so often, his email can brighten my day and he doesn't even know it. i don't know how to say anything with it ruining what friendship we have. yet this cloud has a silver lining. and my cloud's silver lining is army man. i don't know where i'd be without him.
it's average jane signing off.

5 comments:

The Warrior said...

Well, I wish you the best of blessings. Again I don't have much to offer you on this subject. But, let me say this (if I may be so bold): if this is the will of the Lord Our God, then do not lose hope. Pray to Jesus about it. Ask him with a sincere heart. "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13 NIV

(Forgive my religious words, since I do not know what you believe I do not want to offend you but I feel I must say this, and recently, feelings have been doing very well for me, and causing good things to happen.)

I hope that this helps. It is not of my business really. But please consider my words. I really want to be able to help.

jane said...

well, thanx for advice. but, i'm considering going atheist as it seems god hasn't done me any help.

The Warrior said...

I'm sorry about that. I hope my earlier religious comments did not offend you in any way. Me and my faith are inseparable. But I really do understand how one feels when they are having things shoved down their throats. It's terribly disgusting, loathable, and I just hate it. But, in your case, try to look at it in another way. I don't know who they are or what religion they believe in (I myself am Christian, not Mormon), but perhaps they are just trying to watch out for you. It's not a fun prospect, when someone you care for dearly does not Believe. Like I said, I don't mean to shove this down your throat. I just wanted to say this, and please forgive me if it comes off as offensive, for I do not mean it that way at all. I don't really think "going athiest" is a good idea. Remember, if you're wrong, then there is no explanation for what is, and what isn't. What does exist, why it exists, our reason for being here, and what we must do in this life.

You could die tommorrow. Or this minute. It isn't too late--yet. But it could be--one day. And then it would be over for you. I wouldn't delay looking into this. Please don't be offended by what I say. I will try to leave you alone on this, since I know it is not good to hassle anyone in such a state of spiritual confusion (again, please do not take offense to my word usage). I really don't want to bother you. But I have to say this. Just know, if you ever want to discuss this further, say so, and I will do all within my power to aid you in any possible way I can. It pains me greatly, to see an unsaved person. (Please don't misunderstand that particular theological term please, it means "non-Christian" in this sense.) I have thought about this very much. I have read your blog with a heavy heart, having been given by God this feeling of worry, anxisouness, and concern for your eternal soul. It bothers me that I can't help you, about this subject and "army man". But this gives me greater worry. If it wouldn't bother you, I would like you to know that you are and will be in my prayers.

I don't mean to make myself sound good or anything, but I am the kind of person that just wants to help everybody. It just really bothers me when there is nothing I can do to help someone. I am especially bothered when ladies (in this case, you) need some sort of aid. If it were, say, physical, then I am mentally prepare to do what it takes. But this is a much more serious matter than just one's life. I will do what I can, do all in my power. But know this--the Lord God Jesus Christ, a just and merciful God, can do much more than my feeble person could ever even aspire to accomplish. Please just think this over before you commit yourself to the puzzling maze of the religion of athiesm. (I would say it was a religion since it deals with why we exist and other theological issues. If you disagree, please do not take offense here.) I really don't want to bother you (I am a little worried that this may sound just as offensive and condemning as it would from a "throat-forcer".), but I really feel I should say these things. As I said before, I have recently been guided a lot by feelings. It seems to be working out, at least in that sense. Just make sure you aren't making the wrong choice. What I say I say in genuine concern for your soul that God so created with his great and mighty hand. I do not wish to say anything that would in any way bother you. But it isn't accuse God of being "not good" to you just because things aren't exactly going your way. To be truthful the way of Christ is not one of easiness, but trusting in God is always the best course.

Here's a proposition for you. Try praying about this. Your friends have given you good advice on this subject. Don't expect the exact answer you want when you want it. Every prayer is answered, on God's time, but it might not always be the answer one might wish for. Seek God out, with a sincere heart, making sure that you are doing it the right way and really are sincere and not testing him in any way, and "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:13 NIV). I know I said that before, but it is very applicable here. God exists. He loves you. I feel him every day of my life. Even now. He is terribly sad for you. And so am I. He loves you, and all He wants is to be able to call you one of His beloved children and to have you with Him forever in Heaven. He loves you, Amy. Can't you feel it?

Your friend, (If I may consider myself one, if you don't mind or disagree)

Spencer

jane said...

yeah praying is the advice i get all too much. so thanx but no thanx. and sure we could be friends. nice to know you care but ,whatever.

The Warrior said...

All right. I respect your opinion, but cannot stop praying for you. Just so you know I (and many others, etc.) care.