Wednesday, May 9, 2007

life is pain and you get over it

so now i'm already finding out some repurcussions of what happened today between me and mrs. t.....i heard it caused her to have a bad day and that a lot of ppl were crying. i didn't mean for it to blow up like this....not at all... but i don't go back on anything i did. i simply was voicing the thoughts that i'd had for a long time. maybe i could have been nicer, but if i hadn't have said these things, i would have blown up worse... but now i've got a member of graces crying. our president. i heard it from a friend that has T after me... can i just say i hate life. a whole part of me is dreading going to graces tomorrow morning. cuz i don't want to get the dirty looks and glares i know that i'm gonna get tomorrow. i dont' want to deal with that shit...i've already had enough. i've already cried enough. man i hate high school and can't wait to be rid of it....too much drama....teachers that don't treat us like adults....or equals. we have ideas and are bright and smart, and sometimes they treat us like we're two. some ppl deserve that cuz that is how they act....but, some really try to get their point across and teachers just lazily push it aside... i hate it....

well, so my night was going okay for once at young womens even though i hate it. then i came home and started talking to a friend and it got all the whole issue of today back up... but at opening exercises of young womens/young mens.... i saw darion. he got to conduct the meeting...lol but might i say he looked incredibly hot. i don't know what it was about him... maybe jsut the simple jean shorts and loose white tee. just the simpleness of it all. and he was just so cute. i wanted to just hug him for like forever. he gives the greatest hugs....and then he gave me a hug when the guys and girls separated. a really amzing hug. gosh i really like him. he's a sweetheart...i really think that this time he won't hurt me. really. and i guess this is just saying that i'm going for it! i'll talk to him on sunday for a while and who knows what will happen??!!! lol :D i'm just gonna focus on that right now to make me happy... :D

average jane signing off....( i'm moving past my issues and forgeting guys that don't like me as i like them.... i'm moving on to guys that like me, a lot *wink*, and that i really like back...)

8 comments:

Nathan said...

Ouch. That blows, sorry. If you need anything, or just want to talk, or something, you know where to find me. You don't even have to wait for me to e-mail you. ;-)

And good luck with Darion. :-)

jane said...

thanx. that really means a lot...you probably have no idea how much it means....

and thanx. i'll need luck with him...

The Warrior said...

Don't you just love it when someone treats you like crap? It's no fun, I'm so sorry.

And if anyone gives you dirty looks Amy, imagine me in the room giving them right back to them! :-D

jane said...

lol i have to admit that i really bust up laughin the first time i read your comments....:D lol lol cuz i totally can just imagine you trying to give them dirty looks...:D

The Warrior said...

Well good then. Just don't bust up in class and get in trouble. ;-)

jane said...

lol i would so do that and not care about what happened.... school's over in two weeks! :D

The Warrior said...

Well then, if you bust up thinking of me, then it's all your fault! :-P

jane said...

of course it'll be. and i do bust up laughing thinking of you sometimes...:D